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Highlight Of The Week #18

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                        everyday is a journey.

As weeks go, this wasn't such a bad one. A lot has happened during this week. My staples came out last Tuesday and it wasn't too painful. We did have a discussion as to the next steps in my recovery. Although they were unexpected, I can and will deal with whatever is thrown my way. Now, I wish my fmla paperwork went as well as my health recovery, but that is another story for another day!

It was also a week for celebrations! Three of my family members celebrated a life event called Graduation. My great-niece Destiny graduated from High School (a whole year early), my grandson Tim from 8th Grade and my niece Brianna from kindergarten. Growing up, these little buggers, growing up!

We did also have a death in the family. Maybe not in the intermediate family, but a death it was. I consider everyone a family member no matte…

Special Treasures

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I have been given many things since my cancer as presents. People have spent their hard earned money on health based special teas and miracle drinks. I've received special oils from the monks from Peru and a handkerchief that a whole congregation prayed over. A beautiful prayer shawl with a matching hat the most recent gift. There's holy water, special herbs, cancer food dishes and a cookbook for chemo patients. Linda gave me a calendar with hand written scriptures for every week. I could go on and on listing all sorts of things.

Since my surgery, it hasn't been any different. It truly touches my heart at the thoughtfulness of others. True friends really know what it is that we need. They know us so well that their gifts really become more like treasures. What kind of treasures?

Treasures of a favorite ice cream flavor or sweet treat. A foot rub or a good book to snuggle up with. A b…

The Last Straw

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

 This week has been very stormy, providing the gentle breezes of Summer. This kind of weather is my favorite. The sun is out and shining, but a Summer storm can appear suddenly providing much needed relief with it's coolness. The windows can stay open as the curtains billow back and forth. This is my kind of Summer.

I sat here in front of my bedroom window taking in the storm that unfolded in front of me. There is nothing more I love than a good storm. If it's to rain, let it pour! None of this trickle here, trickle there stuff. Unleash it all.

Watching this storm, it brought to mind an unleashing of anger or garbage from within us that is unloaded into the world. I can sit here and feel the calm even though a lot is going on in my life, but it wasn't too long ago that I blew my top just a few days before my surgery. Why did I feel like that moment was the last straw that I couldn&#…

A Breakfast Routine

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I'm not a big breakfast person. I can't jump out of bed and eat right away like a lot of people. I'm more of a brunch eater than breakfast. Even when I make myself something to eat, it will sit on the plate until around 10 a.m. or so. 

Emily, on the other hand, prepares a meal. I'm always amazed at her ability to create a fabulous meal no matter if she is the only one eating or not. People don't usually spend time cooking if it's just for themselves. Why not just pop in a baked potato or make a sandwich? For breakfast it may only consist of cereal. 

Not Emily. Every morning, I stumble into the kitchen to make my coffee. Lo and behold, a tasty morsel awaits my presence. A zucchini frittata or perhaps eggs in a basket. An aroma of homemade pancakes or waffles fill the air. Even her oatmeal tastes delicious whereas mine is lumpy and simple. How does she do it?

You know, I ea…

T.G.I.F.

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                        everyday is a journey.


Thrice blest will all our blessings be,
  When we can look through them to Thee;
  When each glad heart its tribute pays
  Of love and gratitude and praise.
JANE COTTERILL.

Thank God it's Friday! 

We see that plastered all over social media every Friday morning. Heck, I was one of those people.Right before my surgery, I came across one of those posts declaring T.G.I.F. on Facebook. Nothing new or outstanding about it. What struck me as funny in regards to it was the person posting it. They were a stay at home individual. 

I've always associated T.G.I.F. with the work week, so don't get upset with me right away. The first thing that popped into my head was what could have happened to this person during the week for them to be so happy it was Friday? I mean, we've all had rough weeks at work, right? We couldn'…

Throwback Thursday

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Everyday is a brand new                                                 day, everyday is a journey.     It's time again for our weekly Throwback Thursday where we take a look to a previous post in the year 2013.         As I read the following post, my feelings have not changed since then. I feel that people really do waste their lives fighting over things that don't matter.  I know many who hold bitterness against others to the point where no one can identify the original issue. Like many people out there, I also have people who hold grudges against me.  I don't remember exactly what it was that happened that morning in 2013 to dampen my spirits so much, but who can remember some grudges when they have been fed for many years? Why can't people understand that all this time is wasted with hate? And unforgiveness?  Such a waste!                      The Quiet Morn  There are days that we long for the quiet . . . . the sti…

The Recovery

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.


Without a false humility;For this is love's nobility,--Not to scatter bread and gold,Goods and raiment bought and sold;But to hold fast his simple sense,And speak the speech of innocence,And with hand and body and blood,To make his bosom-counsel good.He that feeds man serveth few;He serves all who dares be true. --Ralph Waldo Emerson.

There was nothing more I feared than the recovery. It wasn't fear of dying like everyone assumed, but the pain that would follow. Well, I can honestly say that I was wrong. This was nothing like the last time!

Yesterday, I had an appointment for my post-op that I was dreading. I knew that the staples would be removed (yikes!) and we all know about those sensitive areas of our bodies where the smallest tinge of pain can be magnified. One would assume that I would be accustomed to pain by now, but that is not true at all. In fact, it's the opposite.

Since I…

A Turn

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday
                                                 is a journey.

Since my surgery, my routine life has taken a back seat. What was ordinary and structured before turned into an unexpected adventure. Almost daily, there is a card or package in the mail for me or a visitor knocking on my door. Every single day is totally different than the last. 

Besides all that, when one is at home whether on vacation or illness, there is more time to spend in the company of others. One may feel tiredness, but it's a different kind of tiredness. 

I'm not sure when the change actually happened, but almost overnight as I awakened one morning. I felt good. Really good.  I had a good nights sleep without any tossing and turning. Even though I still had staples, the wound looked good and healing was obviously taking place. 

Honestly, I never thought it would be this good. I was so afraid of the recovery often remember…

Simply A Minimalist

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                        everyday is a journey

Minimalism is the intentional promotion of the things we most value and the removal of everything that distracts us from it. It requires a conscious decision because it is a counter cultural lifestyle that stands against the culture of over consumption that surrounds us.


The world we live in is not friendly to the pursuit of minimalism. Its tendencies and relentless advertising campaigns call us to acquire more, better, faster, and newer. The journey of finding simplicity requires consistent inspiration. Becoming A Minimalist 

As all of you know, I have a huge passion brewing for Tiny Living. As everyone else approaching retirement, I really looked at my finances and tried to figure out how to stretch them as much as possible. Once I retire, I don't want to be worried aimlessly about money. I don't even want to do…

5 HABITS

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                           everyday is a journey.

Who cares for the burden, the night, and the rain,And the long, steep, lonesome road,When at last through the darkness a light shines plain,When a voice calls "Hail," and a friend draws rein,With an arm for the stubborn load? For life is the chance of a friend or twoThis side of the journey's goal.Though the world be a desert the long night through,Yet the gay flowers bloom and the sky shows blueWhen a soul salutes a soul. --Unknown.

I became deeply engrossed the minute I began reading The 5 Habits Of A Woman Who Doesn't Quit by Nicki Koziarz. There was something about the author that resonated with me. I felt as if I knew her, someone close to me. It wasn't until Emily pointed out the obvious. 

She looks like Aubrey!

From that point on we called this current Bible study "The Aubrey Study." …

Simply Seniors

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey            
While visiting a friend of ours yesterday, she shared with me this wonderful, yet hilarious poem. In all this seriousness, we need a little laugh. I hope you enjoy this as much as we did. Happy Saturday everyone.
Seenager I am a seenager, (senior teenager) I have everything that I wanted as a teenager, only 60 years later. I don't have to go to school or work. I get an allowance every month. I have my own pad. I don't have a curfew. I have a driver's license and my own car. I have an ID that gets me into bars and the wine store. I like the wine store best. The people I hang around with are not scared of getting pregnant, they aren't scared of anything, they have been blessed to live this long . . . . why be scared? And I don't have acne. Life is good. Also, you will feel much more intelligent after reading this, if you are a  seenager. Brains of older people are slow because they know so much. People do not decline …

Throwback Thursday

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Everyday is a brand new day,                                              everyday is a journey.Another Throwback Thursday is upon us as we take a look back to an older post from 2013. Where were then and where are we now.
I have to admit that I truly, truly miss third shift. If I had learned anything these past few years of shift change, it's that I belong on third. I never had to take off work for a doctor appointment or any kind of appointment. Granted, I was very tired and didn't get much sleep, but I had plenty of time to take care of things. My vacation time was spent doing fun stuff and not hospital stuff. 
Besides, all my errands were done on my way home from work, leaving the weekends for my own pleasure. Boy, I really miss third shift. Sleeping Beauty   Last night, I returned to work after being off an entire week for my second infusion of chemo. What I didn't expect was the very, very warm welcome upon my return. I did…

Highlight Of The Week #17

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

For someone who is immobile, it's certainly have been an extremely busy two weeks. Recovery is tiring! I've had visitor after visitor spend time with me. Flowers, cards and messages. I am loved. We are loved. Isn't that a wonderful feeling to have?

I've had a pretty busy morning/ afternoon. Another set of well-wishers stopped by. Since I felt so energetic, I thought why not make some calls, especially to check up on my FMLA claim. The last time I did that was right before my surgery.  Knowing these people the way I do, I thought I should make sure everything is rolling along.

What do you think happened? They still haven't approved my  claim. These vultures! I can't stand these people. Lord, forgive me. How can they live with themselves? How long have I been attempting to take care of this thing? Unbelievable! Yet, I refuse to allow this to upset me.

Emily and I have prepar…

Discernment As A Christian

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                        everyday is a journey.

When I was a baby Christian, I saw things differently than I do now, many years later. I was so full of excitement and readiness for my new life. I felt that I was such a newbie and everyone else around me were these perfect Christians. I felt they were better at everything than I, much better. They could pray like a warrior while I struggled in my meek trembling voice. They had a Bible verse ready for every problem I had shared with them. I wanted to be just like them one day.

You can imagine the shock and disappointment I felt when I would see these same people whom I held in such high esteem, fall off the Christian wagon and never get back on. I've learned that appearances mean nothing, it's what on the inside that matters.

The more I study the word of God, the more I am convinced that few people really know their d…

The Entire Time

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                   everyday is a journey.


Be still, my soul!--the Lord is on thy side;
    Bear patiently the cross of grief and pain;
  Leave to thy God to order and provide,--
    In every change He faithful will remain.
HYMNS FROM THE LAND OF LUTHER.

You know, I love being a mom of adult children. I love to see that change happen where suddenly they become the caregivers. It's the progression of life and lovely to experience.

The entire time regarding my surgery, the during and the recovery, they took over. One of my favorite scenes is that of Joey sitting beside me before surgery, sneaking in a mozzarella cheese stick for himself as they prepped me. So totally him! Then there is Emily giving me blood thinner shots twice daily without a qualm. Me? I almost fainted when they told me what I would have to do myself at home. Thank heavens for my children!

I guess, I consid…

Simply No T.V.

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                      everyday is a journey.

Thy presence fills my mind with peace,
    Brightens the thoughts so dark erewhile,
  Bids cares and sad forebodings cease,
    Makes all things smile.
CHARLOTTE ELLIOTT.

Since the beginning of the year, I've turned off the television as part of my "New Year" fast. I haven't turned it on since then. There have been a few occasions on where I was curious what kind of programs were out there, but nothing to keep me interested. 

In fact, it has turned out to be a real project, a sort of experiment to see if I could live off grid without television. Would I be able to keep myself busy and entertained otherwise? I was worried when I began this Fast, because I was drawn to having the television on all day and night when I was home. It became a part of the "noise" surrounding me. 

Another thing I've noticed i…

The Vacuum Testers

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                       everyday is a journey.


As I vacuumed our small apartment, one could hear the rumblings of a dying machine. It seems another vacuum has bit the dust in the Krol household!

My family has gone through vacuum cleaners faster than any other item in the home. It makes no difference if we have purchased a high end vacuum or a cheap one. We destroy vacuums in this family!

When we were younger, I can remember my baby brother making a remark that we should be vacuum testers, since we break so many of them. If they can withstand the Krol household, it will be a lifetime guarantee for everyone else.  

I often wondered why that happens. I mean, it doesn't matter what brand it is. Is it because we are too rough and uncaring as to what it picks up? Am I expecting this vacuum to be industrial strength? Do I even take care of this vacuum cleaner properly? The answ…

The Routine

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I have struggled since arriving home for some sort of routine to occur to no avail. I knew that the recovery would take some time, but I expected to be able to maintain some sort of routine flow. Some sort of work. Instead, nothing.

I can barely move, which is expected. I'm in pain, nothing new here. I knew I would be sore, slow and tired. What I didn't account for was the lack of accomplishment of any sort. Now, I'm not expecting to be a regular energizer bunny, but at least crochet or write a bit.

Instead, I'm way too tired to do anything. I think I have watched all there is to watch On Demand and Netfix. I am not used to be so inactive. Part of it is the medication and the other part of course, happens to be the surgery. 

My taste buds have not been the same, finding food unappealing. Of course, I realize the importance of eating, often opting for juices or small intake of foo…

Throwback Thursday

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Everyday is a brand new day,                                              everyday is a journey.Here we are with another Throwback Thursday upon us. We're taking a look into the past in the year 2013 and providing a small update on where we are now. Nothing has really changed since this post. The same fears plague Emily as they did back then. What has changed is my outlook on death. I would worry what would happen when I'm gone. We all have that one child that is an overachiever in all areas and the one that needs a small nudge. I have one of each. Guess which one I would be worried about the most? All that changed this year as I have undergone a trust issue with God. What am I so worried about? Does He not say He will provide for us and take care of us as long as we believe in Him and lead Christlike lives? Am I not a child of God? Then why am I a slave to fear? Does that mean that I never show fear or worry again? Absolutely not. …

The Morning After

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

As usual, my mind lives in a fantasy world rather than reality. All these plans I've made in my mind regarding the hospital stay, quickly dissolved. I didn't do any of it. 

My roommate left in a matter of hours since my moving in and another quickly replaced her right in the middle of the night. This poor girl wailed and I mean wailed uncontrollably the entire night. In fact, the whole time I was there she sobbed, threw fits of anger and loved to slam things like doors. She was all of 22 years. 

At first, I was extremely concerned for her, thinking she must be in terrible pain. By the time the second day rolled around, I wondered if the pain was real or mental. And so did her staff. Joey even prayed over her.

I had no rest at all during my hospital stay. Besides the girl's constant wailing, I had visitors. The staff kept coming in taking vitals, giving medications and doctors made th…

My Dream

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                       everyday is a journey.

It's Saturday night and what am I doing? I'm settled into my comfy chair, my crocheting basket full of yarn on one side. A cup of coffee and a glass of wine on the other. What am I watching? I'm on YouTube watching an endless marathon of Tiny House videos. I couldn't be happier.

Oh, how I would love to own one. I could retire, buy one and settle somewhere quiet far away from the city. It doesn't matter to me what it looks like inside as long as there are stairs instead of a ladder. I could put my own flair into it making it mine. Everyone names their Tiny House. I would call mine KROLCHET.

People laugh at me when I tell them I want to live in a small space like the Tiny House. You'll never fit all your stuff. Really? I have no problem leaving everything in my apartment and walking out with a few boxes. A…

Simply Tea Time

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                        everyday is a journey.

We love tea in this household. There is something so calming, purifying and comforting drinking tea. We have a collection to be proud of with variations of flavors and brands. We love us some tea. 

Here are the top 10 health benefits of tea.
Tea contains antioxidants.Tea has less caffeine than coffee.Tea may reduce your risk of heart attack and stroke.Tea may help with weight loss.Tea may help protect your bones.Tea may keep your smile bright.Tea may boost the immune system.Tea may help battle cancer.More items... 10 health benefits of drinking tea - TODAY.com  When I was a little girl, one of my favorite memories involved visiting a  dear friend of my mom's. Upon our visit she would lay out a coffee or tea tray with  a plate of sweets. That sweet could be cake or cookies. It didn't matter, because either way, we had a …

The Last Couple Of Months

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                    everyday is a journey.

Here we are in the first days of May already. Who can believe that? It certainly has been a very busy year for us. January came and we became excited for the New Year to unfold it's treasures. Hope sprung very quickly as it normally does at this time of year. 

February brought our trip to Springfield and the train crash that followed. That was a great weekend, believe it or not, even with all the mishaps like the Atm machine eating up my card. 

March brought on nothing but doctor appointments and tests. What a month! Of course, we all know what the results were, just look where I'm at now. Decisions were made and the waiting began.

April brought on even more tests and the days quickly filled with preparations for an upcoming surgery/recovery period. My niece moved away (my coffee partner) and I became a little sad with the tho…

The Day Before

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                       everyday is a journey.

Leave God to order all thy ways,
    And hope in Him, whate'er betide;
  Thou 'It find Him in the evil days
    Thy all-sufficient strength and guide;
  Who trusts in God's unchanging love,
  Builds on the rock that nought can move.
G. NEUMARK.

I am not a person who is bold, adventurous or a risk taker. I like my feet firmly planted on the ground. Fear has stunt my growth of character or spirituality many times in my past. So it came as no surprise while driving home from work last night, for fear to fill my heart once again. 

Will I be able to live off the limited finances I have? Have I touched all the corners of my list? Have I forgotten anything? Did I make the right choices?

It's so easy to get lost here and away from positive thinking. Instead of leaning into God's trust and faithfulness, we can move in…

A Post About Nothing

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                       everyday is a journey.

The essence of happy living is never to find life dull, never to feel the ugly weariness which comes of overstrain; to be fresh, cheerful, leisurely, sociable, unhurried, well-balanced. It seems to me impossible to be these things unless we have time to consider life a little, to deliberate, to select, to abstain.
--Arthur C. Benson.

I had one of the most leisure weekends ever or at least that I can remember. There was absolutely no stress of any kind, no drama and no work! Silence throughout the building.

Joey called and we chatted making plans for the surgery before, during and the after. He is one of the most organized and dependable people I know. He is the type you call to take care of things and I know I can count on him to fulfill any wishes of mine. He is also great for calming me down, offering great words of wisd…

Highlight Of The Week #15

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I want a sober mind,
A self-renouncing will,
That tramples down and casts behind
The baits of pleasing ill;
A spirit still prepared,
And armed with jealous care,
Forever standing on its guard,
And watching unto prayer.
C. WESLEY.

"What's done is done."

Well, my worst fears have been realized this week regarding my Fmla paperwork. I called them to check on the status of my claim and guess what? They never received my paperwork! No kidding! Why am I not surprised? I mean, they seem to have a problem receiving paperwork on the first, second or third try. One of my least favorite people to deal with, these fmla folks. I don't know how these people sleep at night with all the havoc they cause. 

I didn't take the news very well.  Actually, I lost it and had a meltdown as if I was four years old. I wailed, wailed and wailed all the way to work. How I didn't have an ac…