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A Week In My Life Pt.2

Monday:
Had a late start this morning since I've been putting in quite a few hours at night. Since I had a three day weekend, I wanted to take advantage of all the hours I possibly could. While drinking my morning coffee and breakfast shake, my mom called and we spent a good while chatting away.

By the time I was finally able to attack my closet, it was nearly lunch. When I was done, I had four extra plastic storage bins that were empty and three quarters of the closet designated for the wardrobe. Quite an improvement since things would fall out when the door was opened. A quick vacuum around the apartment and a 16 minute workout completed my physical activity for the day.

My plan for the remainder was to solely work on phone calls, emails, appointment scheduling and paperwork. I have a tendency to drop all my papers into a large bin by my desk with the intention of getting to it later. Well, you know that later always somehow turns into much later.

A quick supper of pasta with a s…

A Week In My Life Pt.1

Saturday:
I've spent the morning cleaning out some kitchen cabinet space as a definite re-arranging was needed. Plus, I've been very strung up on de-cluttering unwanted items so either we kept it, trashed it or donated what we no longer used. The kitchen walls look pretty badly in need of some paint, but then an idea took hold that maybe I should try washing them first. SO after doing a section of the kitchen, I was pleasantly surprised at how well they looked.

By early afternoon, sheets were changed, two loads of laundry done and curtains in the living room changed as well. Both the bathroom and kitchen were spanking clean. Did I mention I was up by 7:30 a.m.?

I, on the other hand was pooped and wanted nothing more than a nap. Emily was pretty much out of commission all day as she woke up this morning to a full blown allergy attack. After taking some medication, she was out like a light.

Dinner consisted of vegetable stuffed pita bread and some fruit for dessert. We pretty much …

Past Homes

It seems that people move quite often, a fact that I'm finding out ever since living in an apartment. It's only been 4 1/2 years and already  we've had multiple neighbors move through the revolving doors.

I've been pretty lucky, I guess. My parents had their home for twenty-five years before selling it. From there we went to a two-flat that we lived in for thirteen more years. We've been here on the avenue apartment for almost 4 1/2 yrs. Moving isn't something that we do on impulse or often.

We are burrowing people. We like to settle in for a good while, always looking for a home that we can live in until old age. Moving is just too much work. We don't mind the packing for it's a great way to clean out unwanted or not needed items. We also don't mind unpacking, because it's a new place  and we can decorate as we like. The one thing we definitely don't like is the heavy lifting. Up and down the stairs, box after box. Drive to the new place and…

Standing Through The Storm

Hello everyone,
During my devotions, I came across the following story and I just had to share with all of you. Perhaps, there is someone among you who needs to hear this and can benefit from it's wisdom. Storms? We all have gone through them and I know there will be more.

WHICH ARE YOU?
“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”Philippians 4:13     A young woman went to her mother and told her how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then …

End Of September

'Tis weary watching wave by wave, And yet the tide heaves onward; We climb, like corals, grave by grave, That pave a pathway sunward. We're driven back, for our next fray A newer strength to borrow; And where the vanguard camps to-day, The rear shall rest to-morrow. --Gerald Massey.

Here we are in the last days of September and I've been wondering where they all have gone. It only seems like yesterday that the new school year began and once again I would awaken to the sound of the children waiting for the school bus.

Summer turned into Fall and pretty soon we will see the leaves changing their color and falling to the ground. One can see the squirrels with their mouths full with either a piece of toast or other little tidbit to store for the upcoming months. A change is coming and everyone prepares.

Looking at October's schedule, I feel overwhelmed by all the upcoming activities and duties that need to be done. Between the two of us, we have 7 either doctor or dentist …

The Tower Of Hope

There is no devil in the first two chapters of the Bible and no devil in the last two chapters. Thank God for a book that disposes of the devil! Vance Havner

These past few weeks, the news feeds across the U.S. have been extremely busy with the Supreme Court ruling and so has Facebook. People have been voicing their opinions unabashedly, each believing their viewpoints to be the truth.

I have sat in silence as each side became more vocal in voicing their freedom of speech. Some even downright mean and extremely aggressive, calling other people haters.

I have a major problem when people place me in a box with everyone else. Not just  in the case of a Christian being a hater, but also in other categories such as race.  When has anyone ever seen me behave in such a derogatory way?

Yet, I've stayed quiet, waiting for the anger to dissipate among people who attacked my religious freedom. You see, I'm not here to judge anyone, because I feel that God has given us a wonderful gift of ch…

Enjoying The Journey:Cancer As A Lifestyle: Throwback Thursday

Enjoying The Journey:Cancer As A Lifestyle: Throwback Thursday:    Oh, I remember this well! Believe it or not, I still haven't gone. It's like all those things we set aside for a spare m...

Enjoying The Journey:Cancer As A Lifestyle: Throwback Thursday

Enjoying The Journey:Cancer As A Lifestyle: Throwback Thursday:    Oh, I remember this well! Believe it or not, I still haven't gone. It's like all those things we set aside for a spare m...

Throwback Thursday

Oh, I remember this well! Believe it or not, I still haven't gone. It's like all those things we set aside for a spare moment, but that spare moment never becomes available. That card provides an entry fee so I can spend the entire day there lounging around if I want in my bathrobe or I can take a dip in their several types of pools. . . . naked with other women. Somehow, that turns me off.

I could get a massage, but all that is extra. I do plan on going to rest and lounge by crocheting or blogging. Can you imagine that scene? I'm surrounded by all these people and their technology while I crochet?

This post also sets my mind twirling in anticipation of Christmas and the gift giving season. What should I get for the people in my life? After awhile, it certainly feels as if we have exhausted all the great ideas for gift giving. Or how can we top last year's gifts?

Anyway, that's what is on my mind today. Can't believe September is almost over and Christmas will b…

Simply Low-Tech?

I grew up on television. That telly would be on 24/7, even lulling me to sleep at night. For years now, that tradition has been upheld religiously. I could never understand, back then, how people could just listen to a radio when television was around. I would feel sorry for the people who grew up without  television.

That was then. God has a way of turning our declarations around where we are faced with them complete circle. For the last two weeks, I've given up television, not watching at all. I did watch a few shows late Saturday, but that was all. I don't even miss it.

A couple of years back, I subscribed to various audios of preachers sermons. Everyday in my e-mail folder I receive fifty or more devotions, audios and blogs. No matter where I'm at waiting, I pull out my phone and read my e-mails. I'm sure everyone thinks I'm on Facebook.  My favorites are the audios where I can turn  on the speaker and listen while I'm cleaning, driving or doing other tasks…

All My Journals

I have kept a variety of journals over my lifetime. One for Church notes. One for dreams. One for prayer requests. One for my cancer journey. I even started one to keep track of my expenses. They all sit on my bookshelf, ready for when the urge overtakes me to re-read their contents.

I've  always had this image of myself sitting in a rocker as an older lady going through all these journals, reliving the memories. Knowing myself and how much I love to keep busy, that might not actually be true.

Of course, I also hope the ones who come after me can use these journals in some way. In time of needed comfort or remembrance of me, maybe they can provide an aura of my presence. Maybe there will come a time that someone can actually benefit from my experiences.

But journals have always been a sort of a cleansing for me. When I have a huge problem, the first thing I do is open a journal for writing down my emotions, my requests and working through them with the mighty pen. This is my release.…

A Morning Routine

I've been reading a story of a young woman who gets up very early every morning (around 5:30 a.m.)  to begin her daily morning routine. The first thing she does is make coffee and then she sits down to write in her daily planner what she plans on accomplishing that day.

I really loved the idea!

Lord knows that I miss my daily morning routine of getting up early before everyone else. I miss the quiet, but I also know that there will come a time where I will miss the noise.

Things change as we change. Obviously, my routine has been affected by this treatment. I'm tired and I end up sleeping in longer than before. Hence, no more early mornings alone.

I loved her idea since my time before work has shortened. My expectations of  myself have always been extremely high and at times, very unforgiving if they fell short. These changes have taught me to go with the flow instead of being upset at my lack of productiveness.

I wish I was more like that woman in the blog so organized and center…

Simply Tiny Blogs

I really wanted to know what life in a Tiny Home looked like not from the manufacturer's point of view, but from the people actually living there. I subscribed to a few that I found and began reading from their day one until the present.

Two blogs, two completely different outlooks and experiences.

The first one consisted of a young married couple in their early thirties who wanted to simplify their life and not be a slave to bills. They custom ordered their Tiny Home on wheels from a well known manufacturer.

Their main problem involved parking the Tiny Home. They were a couple who wanted to live as close to the city as possible since they both biked to work and stores. Of course, the problem arises with zoning because the Tiny Home isn't categorized as an RV or a home or even a camper. Apparently, all of that depends on what state you live in and also whether it has wheels or not. Every state has their own regulations as to the height, width, parking and even how long one can …

What Will Be, Will Be

I walked a mile with Pleasure,
She chattered all the way;
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say.

"I walked a mile with Sorrow,
And ne'er a word said she;
But, oh, the things I learned from her
When sorrow walked with me."


There are days that I feel so defeated in all that I do. I end up spending more time in my dream world than reality. Usually, on those days I surrender it to God hoping He will do a better job. I have no idea what the outcome will be like, but there is nothing else I can do.  What will be, will be.

Psalms 118:6
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me? I am learning as I get older that sometimes we need to take a step back, be quiet and let the cards fall where they may. With the exception of a dear friend that stopped by for a cup of coffee and a glass of wine, I am spending this weekend in quiet contemplation. I may feel defeated, but I have not lost. With that in mind, I've surrounded myself with reading material,…

Simply Tiny

My approaching retiring years have been on my mind quite a lot lately. I know I still have 7 years to go before I can hang up my Avon smock and I.D., but the planning going into my life after the work life needs some analyzing.

You see, I will still be only 57 and  a half when I can retire with full benefits. Now, I don't have to leave, I can stay on until the official age of retirement, but I don't want to do that. This is why my mind has been working overtime on ways that could make this possible.

I have been researching online watching YouTube videos on Tiny Home Living. Now, I have to admit that it looks real inviting from these videos, but I also subscribed to Tiny Living Blogs. I find this very informative since they list the pros and cons of such a lifestyle.

So far, I have finished reading two of these blogs from start to the here and now. I'm not sold. Maybe it has to do with what they chose for themselves may not necessarily work for me.

 So I have decided to reall…

Throwback Thursday

Who hasn't had a moment as the one below? I've had too many to laugh about. My most embarrassing? At Office Max at the cash register applying for their rewards card. The Cashier asks me for my address and I for the life of me couldn't remember. I stared at that poor teenager completely blank-faced. Sad to say, I couldn't receive my rewards card. Probably thought I was homeless.

Has  this ever happened to any of you? I do miss those crazy Christmas colored red and green plaid pajama pants. They were so tattered that I had no choice, but to throw them out. Hmmmm, maybe I can find another pair at Walmart. Winter is almost here.
A Diary Of A Crazy Woman       I've become a crazy woman ! My mother called as I was on my way out the door . Picking up my keys , grabbing my  handbag and putting on my coat almost in the same order . I was in a hurry . The whole time speaking to her about the latest in my life . I suddenly became panicky , trying to locate my phone .
    Yes…

What's A-Happening On The Avenue

Many things have been going on even though nothing seems to have changed. I am obsessed with the Tiny House. I have been watching YouTube videos of Tiny Home living, even subscribing to blogs and newsletters. I am very serious about this type of living when I leave Avon, but before I go forward, I need to check all aspects of it. Next will be checking different locations that I can actually place my Tiny House on.

Why am I interested in Tiny Living? Well, it stems from having a desire to live simply. I can retire with full benefits in 7 years. I will be only 57 years old and I have no desire to work in another factory setting. I want the money I have to last me by living simpler. Besides, I want to spend the time I have left enjoying the people in my life and my Ministry. Stayed tuned for more regarding this exciting adventure.

The Ministry has been meeting regularly during the Summer months at various parks. It has been awesome! I think this shall be our regular thing in the warm month…

On Giving Up

This week, I have been thinking quite a lot about this new stage of my life and how it has affected me thus far. I am feeling great, absolutely great. There is no competition with the infusion or pill intake. I will take the pill! Besides, all of you know how much I hate losing my hair.

I have always gone full throttle no matter what kind of treatment I may have had. During the other three times, I've still taught Sunday School, kept the blog, the Ministry and even worked or at least semi- worked.

This time around, I'm just tired and lack the stamina to keep all of that up. I'm not giving up any of my activities completely, just some of the duties associated with it. My intention is to lessen the workload.

The Ministry: I have no intention of stopping, but I do intend on lessening all the running around that I do for it. For instance, I will no longer drop off or pick up any supplies or finished items for the ladies. I am hoping they will be okay with coming to my place to do…

Tamoxifen Symptoms

Of all my treatments, this is one of the easiest and yet challenging. Here it is 11 a.m. and I'm finally getting up to start the day. I have absolutely no energy. I haven't been able to get up at  my regular schedule ever since beginning this treatment.

The same goes in the evening. I'm done as if I have ran a race and finally crossed the finish line. What I need is a nap during the day, but that isn't possible when I'm working 2nd shift. Another symptom happens to be hot flashes, but I've dealt with them for these past eight years so its not  a huge problem.

The leg cramps (charley horses) I've recently have found some home remedies that might help. I went online to Cancer Survivor Network and found a whole group of people who have been on this treatment for years. What I love about this network is that they have experience in this.

One of the solutions was to place  some soap inside a mesh bag and sleep with it around my legs. It is supposed to work well,…

Time Well Spent

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness."
Mother Theresa

A typical Sunday morning scene: We awaken at 7 a.m., eat some breakfast ( oatmeal and a smoothie) and prepare for Church. Usually, there is a load of laundry thrown in between or a story to finish up for the blog that day.

As we head out the door, each going her own separate way, we make plans to meet up afterwards by our secret place. Usually by then, it's around 1 p.m., the day well underway. Either we make a quick grocery run or return home, chatting all the way about our mornings at Church.

Suppertime is at 5 p.m., no television or anything electronic allowed. It's funny how both of my kids have this rule about sitting down at the table as a family. I think that stems from my not being around to do that when they were small. I worked on second shift at that time and suppertime was spent apart.

Sunday is family day. That usually means we d…

Life's Neighborhoods

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood. Would you be mine, would you be my neighbor?

My children grew up on Mister Roger's and Shari Lewis Lamb Chops. I didn't have to censor any of the shows, the thought never even entered my mind to do so. One just knew it was children appropriate.

The more the world turns forward, the more I want to go back to simplicity in life and the rawness of nature. Minus the drugs and new age religion, I would have been happy as a hippie living on a commune doing my share.

I couldn't stop thinking how much the world has changed with each generation. My grandmother's generation completely foreign to my grandchildren's. Heaven knows how it will look for my great- grandchildren.

Ever since I've turned fifty back in January, I've become so aware of things like that. Things of importance and things of none. The way I grew up, my children and what the future could possibly hold for them.

I thought about all of that as I headed out to …

Here Comes The Rain

Song by B.J. Thomas Raindrops are falling on my head
And just like the guy whose feet
Are too big for his bed
Nothing seems to fit
Those raindrops
Are falling on my head
They keep falling.
I just love a good rainy day. Let it rain, let it pour. There is something so comforting to watch nature unleash itself. Nature unfolding before my very eyes inspires the muse within. I just want to write. I just wish I didn't have to go to work  to fully enjoy such a day. So I just did me some
Talking to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way
He got things done
Sleeping on the job
Those raindrops
Are falling on my head
They keep fallin'
Ever since I have made my announcement regarding being out of remission, I have been hearing the same line over and over again. "You're taking this so well." My response has been the same as always. "It's been eight years. If I haven't come to terms with it by now it is a very sad indeed." But there's one thing I know
The blue…

Throwback Thursday

Hello everyone!
There are some things in life that never get old. We can listen, watch or read it over and over again never tiring of it. Today on Throwback Thursday, that's how I feel about the following post.

As I have stated numerous times since my journey with cancer began, my goal is to build fulfilling relationships with the people around me. One of those relationships happens to be with Christ. How I wish that all of you could experience that same kind of love.

No matter what you are going through in life, nothing compares to the joy and peace of God's love and knowing He is beside you the entire time.

 Linda's favorite phrase when faced with a difficult task used to be " Would you walk with me Jesus?" It also has become one of mine. So as I face another day, another new journey, I ask Him. . . ..
Would you walk with me Jesus?
My Spiritual Testimony Today , I want to share something I wrote a few years ago .......


Today, in church, I sat there and reflected…

Getting It Right

I have gone through quite a journey these past eight years. I went from being angry with everyone to wanting to develop meaningful relationships with them instead. I have implemented simplification into my life examining every area for unwanted or unneeded excess. I have spent my time learning and becoming knowledgeable in God's Word.

This morning, while drinking my coffee and listening to Dr. Jeffries online, I thought about any areas that I needed to "come right" with. Is there anything that I needed to fix? I'm not talking about the things involving other people. I'm talking about looking in a 3 way mirror and really seeing my true self.

Have I really worked on everything?

I don't think we can honestly say we're done all we can do. There's always more. I'm looking for that more. I have this absolute need to come right before God.

So that's my next journey. What is yours? What do you need to work on to come right before the Lord? Everyday is …

Top 5 Revisited

My three day weekend was certainly a busy one. Whereas people barbecued, went to the beach or did last minute preparation for the children's first day of school. . . . . .I worked.

I basically locked myself inside the apartment and started on my top 5 most wanted list. Once again, as predicted, I have outreached myself in the planning and was not able to finish everything accordingly.

So what did I finish? Well . . . .

1. I definitely need to make a Fall/Winter schedule for my Ministry. Plus, an outline for our six month General Business Meeting. Of course, that's overdue!

In all honesty, I just made the schedule this morning. As to the outline, I don't plan on having one this time. In fact, I'm planning on winging it.

2. Once again, the hoarder in me needs to unclutter all the clutter in my room. Perhaps even re-arrange some pieces. It's a perpetual struggle with me.

I'm very happy to report that the only thing left are a couple of storage bins to go through, but I…

The Announcement

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me.”
-Erma Bombeck

Earlier, I took a routine petscan for my cancer. Unfortunately, the scan revealed that I'm no longer in remission. Unlike the past, it has been determined that I undergo a hormone treatment consisting of two pills daily of tamoxifen instead of the usual chemo infusion. Of course, this doesn't change anything. We go on as always . . . .God willing. This treatment allows me to continue working for as long as I am able to. The same goes for my Ministry work and this blog. The side effects are minimal consisting mostly of hot flashes, mood swings and swelling of the legs. Worst case scenario means blood clots.
This marks my fourth re-occurrence with ovarian cancer. As with the other three, I'm embracing this new journey God has placed me on. I wonder what He has in store for me and my family, so please p…

Waiting For The Shoe To Drop

I couldn't sleep all night. I felt humid, sticky and extremely uncomfortable. No matter what I tried, I couldn't fall asleep and ended up tossing and turning until the alarm beeped in the early morning.

My mind kept racing with all sorts of images, some frightening, some scary, but all worrisome. The devil loves it when we are in this state. He makes sure the crescendo builds to an even higher beat to where we are consumed with a fury of doubt and worry.

That was me last Monday.

You see, I was having a routine Petscan that I've had on numerous occasion. For some reason, panic and fear engulfed me like never before. What normally has been a quiet and relaxing morning spent reading and doing puzzles while I wait for my scan, turned into a nightmare.

One would think there were pins and needles inside of me as I just couldn't sit or lay still for the life of me. The scan itself takes a mere 20 or so minutes and yet, I thought I would literally jump out of my skin. I've n…

The Ministry

It is not what a man does that determines whether his work is sacred or secular, it is why he does it. – A.W. Tozer

Many times I am asked why I have a Ministry or you're still doing that? I guess it's difficult for people to grasp that I'm actually giving these crochet items away to charities and not selling them.  

I knew how to crochet all of my life. I cannot even remember who taught me or when. I'm assuming it was my own mother. I've never used this gift as a young woman. Never made my own children any thing and then suddenly at the age of 42 years, I picked up the hook.

I often wonder why at that time? Was it God?

I picked it up again at one of the worst times of my life and this  simple hook brought me so much pleasure, so much sanity and so much peace.

How can I take money for that?

I hope I can bring that same kind of emotion to other people who are experiencing health struggles in their lives by allowing them to channel their pain into other things such as cr…

Seven Deadly Sins

Greed, pride, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony and sloth. The seven deadly sins. Which one are you? Yes, you. Every single person on this earth happens to be at least one of those seven.

Last night, I came home in a funk. A total funk. I listen to Christian music both on my way to work and back. As I belted out song after song, emotions took over and I thought about all the things I have been praying for, things not realized.

These are not things that are material. They are not wants. It's harder when we pray for others, because we cannot see the work that is being done on the inside, only what is being done on the outside.

So I became a little down. Walked inside and stuffed myself with donuts. Gluttony has always been my downfall. Not just with eating, but with other things as well. I over analyze things to death. I over react. I over reach. I over schedule. Everything is in the excessive almost as if I didn't know how to do just normal.

Even at work, I can't just do what is re…

Throwback Thursday

I almost forgotten about this post. If I remember correctly, I was home on FMLA for my cancer infusion. It's no wonder that I felt love for mankind, I wasn't around them too much then.

People have always been a struggle for me and running away to hide in the mountains always an appealing thought. Yet, God seems to place me around them all the time. I finally stopped running.

Relationships are difficult because we all are so different with different tastes and dislikes. We have to remember that not everyone out there in the world has the Holy Spirit in them. That's why we need to show them by our actions and words what Christ's love is all about.

Everyday, on my way to work, I recite this prayer: Lord, help me in all I do and say to be a reflection of You. Now, I may not always succeed, but I will never stop trying.


Love Makes The World Go Round    As I start my fast , I'm full of optimism , hope  and love . Yes , love . Being in seclusion , most of the time , I find…

5 Most Wanted

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Isn't that the truth? Who wants to get up and prepare coffee on a rough morning? All of us are hoping for that coffee genie to appear and have a fresh pot brewing the minute we wake up.

It's been that kind of week. Every morning brings a new list of things to do. This happens every time I have special plans for the weekend. I try real hard to accomplish all my errands during the week so no time is wasted on those special days.

As each new day appears, I secretly wish that coffee genie would do it's magic. Unfortunately, that never happens so I have to resort to an old and tried method of manual labor. Another great tried and true method? List making!

I am notorious for getting ahead of myself or getting involved with other things than what I intended or planned. Especially if I'm trying to fit a lot of activities for one weekend. So I needed to make a list of my top five absolutely need to get done.

1. I definitely need to make a Fall/Winter schedule for my Ministry. Plus,…

A Church Nomad

God will make a way,Where there seems to be no way;
He works in ways we cannot see,
He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide,
Hold me closely to His side;
With love and strength for each new day,
He will make a way. He will make a way!
Don Moen

I am a person who sings loudly in Church whether I have a great voice or not doesn't matter. To my ears, my voice is lovely because I am singing in praise.

This past Sunday, I sat quietly not a peep coming out. Even when I tried, my voice would not rise. I realized that sometimes we need to be still. It didn't mean He wasn't there. Quite the opposite, I felt Him even more.

For the first time in a very long time, I decided to stop being a church nomad and make a home somewhere. I've been coming to this Church for three straight weeks and that's where I'm staying. This is where I will tithe and fellowship with others. A new start, a new chapter begins.

I have realized that I needed to get right with God for my prayer life to …