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Death

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When I was a small girl, death was a scary thought and I spent many years being afraid of it. I thought about the burial and how I didn't want to have bugs and worms eating away at me. Just the image alone sent shivers down  my spine. The things we are afraid of are usually things we just don't understand. 

As I grew older, I placed death on a shelf. I mean, everyone in my family lived well into their nineties, why should I even think about it now? When my second child died from SIDS, I rationalized that this was "my cross to bear" in life. When my fourth child died of complications from Spinal Bifida, I became angry with God over death. Isn't it the old to die, not the young?

It wasn't until my bout with cancer in 2007 that I finally made peace with death. Here I was, a middle aged woman of 42 finally dealing with life ever after. I realized there are no guaranties to …

A Weekend Of Rest

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I will bless the Lord at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make its boast in the Lord;
The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
And let us exalt His name together
(Psalms 34:1-3).

Wiping down the kitchen counter, my thoughts scattered with all that had to be done before my visitors came over. Visitors that I haven't planned on. Agitation quickly set in.

Today was to be my relaxing weekend. I had one appointment for my mammogram and afterwards I was free to indulge myself in total idleness. It never quite materialized.

What happened to that perfect weekend that I dreamed about during the week? All I wanted was a nice quiet time at home with my Pj's, enjoying the things I love to do. It just didn't happen.

There are times that I feel inadequate as a leader. And selfish. I feel tired, burned out and mentally drained. Tryi…

Highlight Of The Week #4

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I have trusted in Your mercy;
My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
Because He has dealt bountifully with me
(Psalms 13:5-6)

It's funny how quickly the weekend ends and a new week begins. If only the workweek would go by as quickly, but usually that's not the case. We began our week with a visit to the orthodontists. Not very exciting, I know, but then as the week unfolded, so did our schedule.

A year ago, I was invited to participate in a literary project where I wrote for 30 days on one topic.  As you all may know, I am not a professional writer with an education in Literature. Writing sort of just happened and here I am now. Yet, I've always wanted to stretch my capabilities as far as they can go when it comes to my writing. I gladly accepted the challenge.

This week, two things were highlighted above everything else. This writing project w…

Throwback Thursday

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Last year, not exactly sure of the time frame, my mom decided to visit Joey and his family. Upon her arrival at the Springfield Amtrak Station, Joey posts a picture of the both of them. All of a sudden, people are remarking on how incredibly beautiful not my mom, but I look with that auburn hair. That's how much I look like my mom. 
Not only do we end up resembling our mothers, but we also have the same techniques in dealing with issues like relationships, work, and our belief system. We do what we know. It always makes me smile whenever I hear a young woman make a bold declaration that she is nothing like her mom. For now, that is. She'll get there!

 Messes Of The Past
You want to know what she will look like older, look at her 
mother.
OR
You want to see what she is like, look at her mother. 

We end up being just like our mom, whether we like it or not. As young women, we set out into the world full of high hopes and dreams,…

Simply Chipped, Broken And Mismatched

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                                                    everyday is a journey.


Hiding In Thee
“O safe to the Rock that is higher than I,
My soul in its conflicts and sorrows would fly;
So sinful, so weary, Thine would I be;
Thou blest, ‘Rock of Ages,’ I’m hiding in Thee.
How oft in the conflict, when pressed by the foe,
I have fled to my Refuge and breathed out my woe;
How often, when trials like sea billows roll,
Have I hidden in Thee,
O Thou Rock of my soul.
Hiding in Thee, Thou blest ‘Rock of Ages,’
I’m hiding in Thee.”
William O. Cushing

For my next project, I decided to throw out any chipped, broken or mismatched mugs, dishes and bowls. We all have them, don't we? It's always our favorite coffee mug that gets chipped that makes that cup of java taste so good.




 This was extremely difficult for me to do and not just for me, but Emily, too. We become accustomed to our things and deep inside of me ther…

January Review

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                   everyday is a journey.

The month began filled with hope, renewal and a gusto to refresh the things that make us who we truly are, both on the inside as well as on the outside. So with a surprising fervor, I attacked my simplification goals, beginning in my bedroom. 

With that same energy, my writing that once became stale renewed itself by flowing beautifully. I formed a new schedule that would accommodate both my Ministry and this blog. I love this new schedule since it allows flexibility that my treatment needs. There are days where I am extremely exhausted and cannot do anything but sleep. 

Every weekend and a few mornings a week, I focus on my writing. As to my Ministry, I have learned to delegate the workload. I'm not too proud to ask for help. All this provides for me to be more relaxed, rested and spend a bit more time fellow-shipping with others. …

Highlight Of The Week Pt.3

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We began the week with freezing temperatures. It's been a pretty decent Winter with hardly any snow or ice. I'm also starting the week a whole year older since my birthday was over the weekend. It was a very lazy, all about me kind of weekend. The last thing I wanted was to go back to work. 

I've never liked 4 day workdays. One would think it would go by quickly, but the opposite happens. So here we were struggling to get through the week. Everyone was on edge due to this shift change coming up, especially when we would find out in a day or two on who exactly is moving. A tense week indeed!

No one seems to like changes and we cannot blame them. We're such ornery people so fixed in our ways that we dislike being told what to do. Whenever I feel down as a leader, I think of Moses and the Israelites. Now here's a man who had to deal with all types of behavioral issues. I cannot c…

The Love Of God

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I'm always on the lookout for poetry that resembles my love for God. Now, I may not be an evangelist with the gift of gab when it comes to Praise and Worship of Our Heavenly Father. But . . . . I love to belt out a good song regardless of what my voice may sound like. The same goes for poetry.  I'm so glad there are people who have that amazing talent of forming words to describe our love for Our God. I hope you enjoy this blessed Sabbath day.


The Love of God

“At first I prayed for light; could I but see the way,
How gladly would I walk to everlasting day!
I asked the world’s deep law before my eyes to open,
And let me see my prayer fulfilled, and realize my devotion.
But God was kinder than my prayer,
And darkness veiled me everywhere.

And next I asked for strength, that I might tread the road
With firm, unfaltering pace to heaven’s serene abode;
That I might never know a faltering, fa…

If I Could Linger

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If Thou Couldest Know
“I think if thou couldest know,
O soul, that will complain,
What lies concealed below
Our burden and our pain,
How just our anguish brings
Nearer those longed-for things
We seek for now in vain,
I think thou would’st rejoice, and not complain. I think if thou could’st see,
With thy dim mortal sight,
How meanings, dark to thee,
Are shadows hiding light;
Truth’s efforts crossed and vexed,
Life’s purpose all perplexed,
If thou could’st see them right,
I think that they would seem all clear,
and wise, and bright. And yet thou canst not know,
And yet thou canst not see;
Wisdom and sight are slow
In poor humanity.
If thou could’st trust poor soul,
In Him who rules the whole,
Thou would’st find peace and rest,
Wisdom and right are well, but trust is best.” Adelaide A. Procter

It's funny what we can discover about ourselves when reflecting on the past. I'm not sure if it's the arrival of the New Year or being …

Fast 3

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As we are in the last week or so of the Fast, I have decided to continue on with this new routine. I really feel good, my soul rested and quite energized. I would like to continue this trend throughout the year.

As to my Facebook games, I've made a decision to play them at night when I come home from work. That's usually the period where I am too tired to write or even crochet. I normally watch something and go to sleep, but I can use this time in a better way. I can play games, lol.

In my research to develop an even deeper relationship with God, I've come across the following list from Pastor Rick in ways for effective prayer. Since we are fasting, this seemed a great time to share the following with all of you. I hope this helps in your quest to become closer to God.

KEYS TO EFFECTIVE PRAYER Start your new year off with a special time of prayer. Commit this week to praying and dedicating this year to God's purposes i…

Throwback Thursday

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.   I've never been good at joining a support group. Just not my kind of thing. I am a problem solver or at least, I like to improve my lot in life. So it's very difficult for me to sit in a group and talk about feelings week after week. It's not me. That doesn't mean I don't believe in support groups. I believe everyone has their own ways going through trials. Everyone needs to do  what works for them. I write through mine. Below is a post from a few years back. To this day, my kids tease me about my jealousy with my grandkids and other people. It just proves that you don't need blood to love a child. I can love all children and I love these two very much. I don't care what color they are or where they came from. They are mine. A Sort Of An Update
I've seen better days ,
but I've also seen worse .
I don't have everything that I want , 
but I do have all I need . 
I woke up…

Simply Medicine

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For my next project, I decided to tackle my three drawer plastic cabinet in my bedroom. The first drawer is

for makeup; The second drawer is for medicine and the third drawer is for washcloths/dishtowels. The first and third drawers are pretty well organized, but the medicine one is a total mess. One can barely close it without jamming one thing or another. All the band-aids and contents of medicine packages spilling over into the drawer. 


                                           before

Believe me, the last thing I wanted to do is clean it out. The more I pulled out, the more it looked like a mess underneath. I might need a whole package of baggies to sort things out. I even found a broken thermometer and countless of wrappers from cough drops/band-aid wrappers/used plastic medicine tabs. 


 I found things such as masks, adhesive removal cream, bandages. Things I haven't seen nor used …

Eat. Pray. Hustle.

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Trees “I think that I shall never see
A poem lovely as a tree. A tree whose hungry mouth is pressed
Against the earth’s sweet-flowing breast; A tree that looks at God all day,
And lifts her leafy arms to pray; A tree that may in summer wear
A nest of robins in her hair; Upon whose bosom snow has lain;
Who intimately lives with rain, Poems are made by fools like me,
But only God can make a tree.” Joyce Kilmer

Eat. Pray. Hustle. My very first on-line bible study. Do I like it? Well, I have never been in a bible study where there wasn't any discussion afterwards, so I do miss that interaction. Otherwise, I do love the option to watch it comfortably any time of the day. 

What I do find extremely interesting is that the bible study is about living out our God given dreams. That is exactly my goal for this year. Now, I have…

The Written Page

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Let me go where'er I will,
I hear a sky-born music still:
It sounds from all things old,
It sounds from all things young,
From all that's fair, from all that's foul,
Peals out a cheerful song.
It is not only in the rose,
It is not only in the bird,
Not only where the rainbow glows,
Nor in the song of woman heard,
But in the darkest, meanest things
There alway, alway something sings.
'Tis not in the high stars alone,
Nor in the cup of budding flowers,
Nor in the redbreast's mellow tone,
Nor in the bow that smiles in showers,
But in the mud and scum of things
There alway, alway something sings.
—Ralph Waldo Emerson

In  my Freshman year in High School, I fell in love with Literature. Suddenly, all I wanted was to read, read, and read. It didn't matter if it was mystery, thriller, romance or poetry. I loved it all. My love of the written word has expanded into actually writ…

O Holy Sabbath

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One of our main objectives has always been to leave the Sabbath as Holy as possible. Sunday around here is Church day and family day. We try not to have any social events to take away from the sanctity of the day of rest. That means no hard laboring such as laundry, vacuuming etc. I have to be honest and admit that there have been times we have broken that objective. This morning as I glance at the overflowing hamper (more than usual) I am tempted to do so again, but I don't. I really want to stay committed to my goals this year. So as we unfold this Holy Sabbath, I hope you will enjoy this poem that means so much to me and my feelings regarding my Faith. O Holy Sabbath!

Love bade me welcome; yet
my soul drew back,
Guilty of dust and sin.
But quick-eyed love,
observing me grow slack from
my first entrance in,
Drew nearer to me,
sweetly questioning
If I lacked any thing.
A guest, I answere…

A Birthday Special

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Today I spent the day in the company of people I love and enjoy, but that's what birthdays are all about. I'm not one to run around partying, but quite the opposite. I prefer the coziness of home and could live alone away from everyone in complete isolation. Yet I know we are to fellowship with others so I really try my very best to go out into the world. When I do, I never regret doing so. This was the case today as I thoroughly enjoyed myself from break of day until the evening. 

After a stimulating breakfast conversation with my niece and nephew-in-law, I headed back home to prepare the abode for the arrival of  my landlord and the annual pest control visit. There is nothing more appealing to me then a freshly cleaned home. It even smelled clean.

From the afternoon until the evening, I spent in the company of my fellow Ministry ladies at a baby shower. I am not sure if I can convey ho…

Highlight Of The Week #2

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The week began with a bang, an announcement waiting for us as we walked into work on Monday. Once again, they are eliminating the amount of people we have on second shift. Half our crew will go to first, the other will remain, all depending on our seniority and position.

For some reason, this doesn't upset me at all. Maybe that could be because majority of us have gone through this two years ago when they eliminated our third shift crew. Been there, done that. 

Will I be one of the ones leaving? I have no idea, but I am okay with it if I am. I do have the seniority, but that does mean anything. If they need me on first, they will move me. After all the struggling I have done these past two years with adjustment, I really feel comfortable with letting go of all that negativity.  I'm ready for whatever happens.

It does bring a sort of excitement to what normally would have been just another w…

Throwback Thursday

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Everyday is a brand new day,                    everyday is a journey.        
Here we are, a whole three years later and I still enjoy the following blogs, plus a few more I've added on since then. My e-mail is flooded daily by subscriptions to various blogs, devotionals, charitable organizations and my dear audios. 
I just love the concept of being able to access them anytime I like. While others are on their phones, checking out Facebook, I use my phone to read my e-mails. 
I have added many Tiny House blogs since I wanted to see what life is like living in a Tiny House. I wanted to see the different problems that can arise and the solutions that were chosen. Most of all, I wanted to see if this was something for me. I hope you enjoy and keep on reading!    My Other Blogs
This weekend , Emily and I are relaxing at home , taking care of a few chores around the apartment . As we kick back , let me share with you some of my favorite blogs that I follow . 

A HOLY EXPERIENCE 
A lo…

Where Is The Sun?

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I will not doubt the love untold
Which not my worth nor want hath bought,
Which wooed me young and wooes me old,
And to this evening hath me brought. --Henry David Thoreau.

I never imagined that the day would come where I actually miss sunshine. I have always been a firm believer in all four seasons. We need these seasons to happen not only to provide the Earth with the rest, the growth and renewal it needs, but for our own well-being. 

Each season provides something we need. 
Spring
 Provides renewal, a fresh start into physical activities and mobility after a long rest. 
Summer
 Provides a time for family adventure where we interact  with others, go on vacation and spend time with the ones we love. 
Fall
 Provides a time of preparation as children go back to school, our gardens are harvested and supplies are replenished for the upcoming frost.
Winter
 Provides a time of rest, more sleep and leisure time.

I…

Fast 2

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January has always been the month where Christian Churches embark on a Fast for the New Year. Majority of them, that is. It's no wonder that I have come across, during one of my devotionals, the following questions one can reflect on. 

Please answer these questions every day during the fast:

1) What stands out from the passage today?

2) How is your spiritual appetite growing?

3) What is God telling you during the fast?

4) What areas of your life need to change?

5) What assignments has God given you today for His glory?

6) Who needs your prayers now?

7) What insights is God revealing about your focus and goals in 2016?

So how is my Fast coming along? Pretty darn good. I'm ashamed to say that I must have spent a lot more time on my game playing than I have realized. I find that I have no reason to go on Facebook anymore and a lot more time available.

Every morning, I go on to my Crochetin…

Calendar Days

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God of the Impossible
“O God of the impossible!
Since all things are to Thee
But soil in which Omnipotence
Can work almightily, Each trial may to us become
The means that will display
How o’er what seems impossible
Our God hath perfect sway! The very storms that beat upon
Our little bark so frail,
But manifest Thy power to quell
All forces that assail. The things that are to us too hard,
The foes that are too strong,
Are just the very ones that may
Awake a triumph song. O God of the impossible,
When we no hope can see,
Grant us the faith that still believes
All possible to Thee!”
J.H.S.

One of the most important items in our little apartment happens to be the calendar. Every Christmas vacation, one of the things we do is  fill up our calendar for the upcoming year with appointments and special occasion dates (birthdays,anniversaries). I pour over the old one, reminiscing as I scan over each mont…

2016 And Beyond

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A new beginning has been on my mind the entire Holiday Season. My mind keeps drifting off examining what I need in my life, not what I may actually want. There's a huge difference in the two. Remember that my main goal is to walk in the path that God has planned for me. That may involve a plan that I hadn't thought of or necessarily may desire. Hence, my deep concentration levels on that subject. 

So what am I looking for this year? 

1. For one thing, I think it's time we began saving for a new car. That doesn't mean we are buying one, just that we need to prepare ourselves financially for that expense. The vehicle I do have happens to be quite old and pretty soon, it will completely die a horrible death. 

2. We have been contemplating moving to a new place. Originally, we believed that my work would eventually close shop and we would move closer to Joey's. Our goal has alway…

A Million Dollars

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                          everyday is a journey.

One day at work, our conversation turned toward winning the lottery and what we would do with all of that money. 

I would buy a house, paid in full so I wouldn't have a mortgage. 

I would pay off my student loans and put the rest in savings.

I would buy a house for each of my children.

I would buy an RV and travel the fifty states.

I would pay off my bills, my house and put the rest in the bank. 

I would buy a new car. 

I would buy a business so I could be my own boss. 

It went on and on as each of us voiced our dream felt hearts upon winning so much money. None of us planned on stopping to work, maybe only part-time, but still working. My boss sat quietly listening as we went back and forth dreaming. Finally, he couldn't contain himself any longer and yelled out.

"You guys  are making decisions based on your poor p…