Showing posts from February, 2018

The Wake

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

One poor day!
Remember whose and how short it is!
It is God's day, it is Columbus 's.
One day with life and heart is more than
 time enough to found a world. --James Russell Lowell.

There is something about a death that brings people together. Grief welcomes others. It reaches deep inside of us bringing forth our innermost emotions of loneliness, sorrow, relief, immortality. We spend our days reliving the moments of our lives with this person. How can a lifetime flash past before us in a couple of days? Is that all that it is? Little moments, good and bad?Death means something different to all of us. It all depends on where one is spiritually. To some it is a final act leading no where. How depressing! To others, a go between, a waiting room of forgiveness before entering Heaven. What was the point of the Cross then? For me, it means a celebration with my Lord. The fin…

A Tea Break

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Holy Spirit, Peace divine!
Still this restless heart of mine;
Speak to calm this tossing sea,
Stayed in Thy tranquillity.

Now, you all know I have given up coffee a little over a two months ago. It does seem like forever. To be honest, I haven't found a tea to be the substitute for the coffee I'm missing.

We have a store out here that has an entire aisle for just tea. Every kind of tea you can imagine. There is even one for breastfeeding, What? Yep, it's true.
My favorites at this moment are lemon basil, peppermint, mint and spearmint. Chamomile always works great for an upset tummy. Around here, we call it tummy tea. Emily has drank green tea since she was a little girl and her body has grown so accustomed to it, she doesn't feel right if she misses her cup of the day. There are several brands of tea out there depending on what it is that you like bet…

The Lion, The Otter, The Beaver And The Golden Retriever

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                       everyday is a journey.

Rise, O my soul, with thy desires to heaven, And with divinest contemplation use Thy time where time's eternity is given, And let vain thoughts no more thy thoughts abuse; But down in darkness let them lie: So live thy better, let thy worse thoughts die! --Sir Walter Raleigh.
Let's have some fun today! Recently, I've come across the following personality test from author Gary Smalley. Are you the lion, the otter, the beaver or the golden retriever? 

SCENARIO 1 You receive a text message from a friend asking a question.  Lion – Respond using the fewest possible letters. It is quite possible that your text cannot be understood by the recipient. In fact, when asked later, you might not even be able to understand what you wrote.  Otter – Text back using as many words and emoticons as po…

Clutter Free Life

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Ring out, wild bells, to the wild sky, The flying cloud, the frosty light: The year is dying in the night; Ring out, wild bells, and let him die. Ring out old shapes of foul disease, Ring out the narrow lust of gold: Ring out the thousand wars of old, Ring in the thousand years of peace. --Alfred Tennyson.

There is nothing I detest more than clutter! It's no wonder that whenever I'm going through a trial or an issue, I feel claustrophobic and everywhere I look I see clutter. I have this huge need to clean it all out, every nook and cranny. I feel as if my whole life is a clutter and by cleaning out my closets or refrigerator, I've straightened out my messy life.
Why do we associate clutter with the mess in our life? Most importantly, why do we associate the word clean as a purification of the soul? Well, you know that saying that goes something like messy house, m…

Just A Dream

Everyday is a brand new day,everyday is a journey.

Ah, friend, let us be true
To one another! For the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain,
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night. --Matthew Arnold.
Dreaming! We all dream while in the land of nod, don't we? What's funny is that we all have a re-occurring dream. You know the one I'm talking about. For me, it is always about yarn, tons and tons of yarn. The theme may be the same, but the scenery and act changes every time. 

My most recent one involved my father. I was in his house in Arizona, exploring every single room. I went down into what looked like a back room that had multiple boxes. In these boxes I found some yarn, quite a bit of yarn. I…

Sunday Morning Nomad Pt.?

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                          everyday is a journey.

Trials must and will befall;
But with humble faith to see
Love inscribed upon them all,
This is happiness to me.

These past few years, I've been a Sunday morning nomad, roaming from church to church not wanting to belong anywhere. After serving for over six straight years on a regular basis, I felt burnt out and in desperate need for spiritual rebirth within my soul. I had absolutely no desire to belong anywhere, let alone serve. 

For awhile that has served me well, visiting different churches and seeing how they run. I could go in and be part of the service without being part of the church family. I didn't have to make small talk with anyone. I didn't have to volunteer my services. I didn't have to get involved in someone's life.  I could go in and out like bandit.


Walking Boldly

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

There lies thy cross; beneath it meekly bow;
It fits thy stature now;
Who scornful pass it with averted eye,
'Twill crush them by and by.

I'm not spending my life walking in fear. When I think about all the times I've been scared in my life, it makes me mad at myself. Being scared affected everything I did. It prevented me from living. Not anymore. This woman is walking boldly with no fear at all. At least, on the outside, lol. On the inside I'm shaking like a leaf, but that won't stop me from living out my life boldly.

This is my journey, my cancer journey. No one can walk that road for me, except me. The only person I WANT on that journey is Jesus to walk beside me and carry me when I no longer can go on. 

My grandmother was a fierce woman. A bold woman. She believed in not giving up. You may be sobbing hysterically and shaking, but you stand your groun…

A Restless Day

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                         everyday is a journey.

It is the secret sympathy, The silver link, the silken tie, Which heart to heart and mind to mind In body and in soul can bind. --Sir Walter Scott.
Being off so many days in a row left me restless. Even though my days were filled with things to do, I still would patter around the apartment feeling lazy and listless. I realized that we need to work, to have a job. Or at least, I do. As much as I love being at home, occasionally I need to get out.

I remember Joey's kindergarten teacher telling me how she had to move the children around from one activity to the next so they wouldn't become restless. They would sit in a circle for story time and then they had art in a separate corner of the room. There was sit down at their desk time and another space for every lesson throughout the day. …

Work And Treatment

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                       everyday is a journey.

The thing that goes the farthest
Toward making life worth while,
That costs the least, and does the most,
Is just a pleasant smile.
That smile that bubbles from a heart
That loves its fellow men
Will drive away the cloud of gloom
And coax the sun again. --Anonymous.
I was thinking the other day, how difficult it is becoming to be 
sick chronically and still be able to work. It's becoming more and more difficult to balance the two. As understanding and compassionate as the average workplace claims to be, their long term disability and policies take away from the financial side by reducing the percentage we will receive to almost half our income. 

Business is business and we should never confuse ourselves into thinking that money doesn't talk. No matter how compassionate they may seem, mone…

The Group

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                          everyday is a journey.

Sit down, sad soul, and count
The moments flying;
Come, tell the sweet amount
That's lost by sighing!
How many smiles?--a score?
Then laugh, and count no more;
For day is dying. Lie down sad soul, and sleep,
And no more measure
The flight of time, nor weep
The loss of leisure;
But here by this lone stream,
Lie down with us, and dream
Of starry treasure. --Bryan Waller Procter.
After much procrastination, I have finally decided to debut my Chronic Illness Group. You know, there are things in life that happen that are not in my control. I found that out during my radiation treatment last year. I didn't want to minister to anyone, but to myself, but God had other plans. From that to here. 

I put a lot of thought into how this group would work, what it should be about and what I wanted from it. The problem came from an unexpected tur…

The Glasses

Everyday is a bran new day,
                                                          everyday i8s a journey.

Weary of myself and sick of asking
What I am, and what I ought to be,
At the vessel's prow I stand, which bears me
Forward, forward, o'er the starlit sea O air-born voice! long since severely clear,
A cry like thine in my own heart I hear.
Resolve to be thyself: and know that he
Who finds himself, loses his misery. --Matthew Arnold.
So I've been meaning to get new glasses for years and years now, always coming up with reasons why it cannot be this minute. I have a way of putting off anything to do with me as if my needs weren't as important as my families. All moms do that. 

I think it has to do more with making the time to go. We all know it will take time and that's something very precious to us all. To be more honest, I'm just lazy. I could be doing something a lot more fun. At least in my own crazy mind…

The Garden Path

Everyday is brand new day,
                                                         everyday is a journey.

What's hallowed ground?
 'Tis what gives birth
To sacred thoughts in souls of worth!
--Peace! Independence! 
Truth! go forthEarth's compass round;
And your high-priesthood shall make earth
All hallowed ground. --Thomas Campbell.

Your story of pain and healing can be a pathway for others to follow in their healing process, too. It is our choice how we tell these stories and to whom.  it's our duty as Christians to share it with others.

Sometimes, we just want to hide and lick our wounds in private away from the prying eyes of the world. What good does that really do? Does it help anyone else? No, but it does feel good to sometimes have a good ole pity party.

Happiness is a choice. How we choose to react to things is our choice. Yes, I acknowledge that certain things can ignite our anger, our jealousy or our depression.…

The Beauty Within

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

O Light that followest all my way,
I yield my flickering torch to thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in thy sunshine's blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be. --George Matheson.
Let's begin today differently by being thankful in all we encounter and in all we do. If we walked out the front door with a positive and thankful attitude, the devil couldn't touch us. I think that the majority of us do just that, but then the world intercedes. 

I know I walk into work each and every day with a smile on regardless of how I feel. I try, really try, because I know this is the area where I struggle. I know my weaknesses and I'm sure that you do, too. The way I walk out is sometimes way different. Although, those days are becoming rarer. Thank goodness for that.

It's difficult to see the beauty within a person who spends majority of their time being miserable. Where is the be…

White Noise

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                            everyday is a journey.

I ask not wealth, 
but power to take
And use the things I have, 
aright;Not years, 
but wisdom that shall make
My life a profit and delight. --Phcebe Gary.
There is so much white noise around us on a daily basis, it's too difficult to hear that small still voice inside of us. Sometimes, I feel we choose what white noise we do listen to. Others, we cannot escape, but we do have to endure.
How would you define white noise? When I googled white noise, here is what it said: noise containing many frequencies with equal intensities.
Wow, that's everything. It's also very scary, because not all of us are strong enough to resist the negative and harmful things we need to be avoiding. Unfortunately, we are effected by the things around us. The more stress we have in our life whether it is in the form of a trial or just th…