Showing posts from June, 2017

The June Gathering

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Thy presence fills my mind with peace,
    Brightens the thoughts so dark erewhile,
  Bids cares and sad forebodings cease,
    Makes all things smile.

Around here, one can always tell when Summer is officially here, even if the calendar says otherwise. My Ministry ladies just love getting together for our monthly gathering at the woods or parks or anywhere outdoors. This always signifies the Summer Season has begun. 

I can always tell just by the type of place where we meet, what kind of turnout I will have. They love, love the outdoors, especially under this tree.
A truly beautiful day it was and not just because of the scenery. There is something calming about the woods, isn't it?
Always the same picture under the same tree. The same expressions on our faces. I look at this and see a story progression from year to year.
The "I want a tan" group.

Ovarian Cancer Pt. 2

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Is thy cruse of comfort wasting?
    Rise and share it with another,
  And through all the years of famine,
    It shall serve thee and thy brother.
  Is thy burden hard and heavy?
    Do thy steps drag heavily?
  Help to bear thy brother's burden;
    God will bear both it and thee.

Cancer. . . . no one wants to hear that C word. Cancer occurs when the cells in an area of the body grow abnormally. Ovarian cancer is the seventh most common cancer in women. The other six? Breast, colon, endometrial, lung, cervical and skin cancer, in that order.

Ovarian cancer is also known as the silent killer since it has really no early symptoms. It cannot be detected simply by having a pap smear. The symptoms when they do appear could be associated with just about anything. Hence, the silent killer nickname.

What are some symptoms that are associated with ovarian can…

Meet Thy Neighbors

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                             everyday is a journey.

The year's at the spring
And the day's at the morn;
The hillside's dew-pearled;
The lark's on the wing:
The snail's on the thorn;
God's in his heaven:
All's well with the world. --Robert Browning.

After living here for almost six months, we've finally met the neighbors! Amazing! It wasn't by choice, but rather, by chance. 

We awoke one Saturday morning to the sounds of our neighbors outside. Anna, the one living below us, left her car running all night and the battery was dead. I know, I know. How or why would anyone leave their car running all night and then forget about it? Shrug, I'm not here to judge. Once, I ran the red light and hit another car. How or why did I do that? Shrug?

I came out and moved my car so one of the neighbors can give her a jump. I was happy to do so. You see…

Understanding Ovarian Cancer

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                    everyday is a journey.

All common things, each day's events
That with the hour begin and end,
Our pleasures and our discontents
Are rounds by which we may ascend. --Henry W. Longfellow.
Boy, have I learned a lot in these past ten years in regards to my cancer! In all of this time, I've never gotten technical with my cancer. Rarely, will I post stories full of medical terminology that no one can understand. I know I don't want to read that kind of stuff.

Yet, I find myself thinking that others may not feel the same. Maybe, someone has a need to know, because they may be in that season where I was once.. . .searching. So this post is for you.

I have stage 3 ovarian cancer. My cancer is a re-occurring cancer which means it comes back after a time. It can come back in the same place or somewhere else. Mine always comes back …

That Crazy Mat Lady

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

We scatter seeds with careless hands,
And dream we ne'er shall see them more;
But for a thousand years
Their fruit appears
In weeds that mar the land. --John Keble
Getting my hair done the other week, I was asked the 64,000 question. 

Do you still crochet for that Ministry? Of course. Your not crocheting now like you used to. Well, I'm working on homeless mats out of plastic. Out of what? Plastic.

She sits down and smiles at me, not saying a word. I asked her why she was smiling and she just shook her head. It was a weird smile, you know, like she found it crazy. Like I was crazy. 

This happens quite a lot. People look at me weird like why would I even consider doing something like that? And then with plastic? They don't have time for this silly nonsense of mine. 

It never fails, every time I'm seen collecting or carrying these plastic bags, someone has to ask that que…

The Parking Spot

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

O Love, how cheering is Thy ray!
    All pain before Thy presence flies;
  Care, anguish, sorrow, melt away,
    Where'er Thy healing beams arise.
  O Father, nothing may I see,
  Nothing desire, or seek, but Thee.

I have mentioned before my company's commitment to fundraising for breast cancer. One of their newest fundraiser happens to be raffling off two parking spaces near the door. Actually, it's not that new. It has been around for about a year now. 

I've never really been into this fundraising, opting to buy a raffle ticket only once before. To me, I didn't mind parking way in the back. It is what it is. 

One day, the raffle is going on and I just happen to have a ten in my pocket. That's a rarity since I don't carry paper money on me. All my bills are paid on-line, therefore, I don't carry any on me. That day, I had that ten and tho…

Radiation Therapy

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                                  everyday is a journey.

Drop thy still dews of quietness
till all our strivings cease.
Take from our souls the strain
and stress and let our ordered
lives confess the beauty
of thy peace.
J.G. Whittier

Of all the treatment I ever had, I hated radiation the most. Yet, it was this treatment, plus the surgery that has made it possible for me to be in remission and no scans until next year. We ponder. What exactly is radiation? How does it work? How harmful is it really?

ra·di·a·tion ther·a·py
ˌrādēˈāSHən ˈTHerəpē/ noun noun: radiation treatment the treatment of disease, especially cancer, using X-rays or similar forms of radiation.

Radiation, as explained to me by the nurse, works best on a daily basis. The cancer is attacked in the same way as when one pops popcorn. As the corns are heated, they explode p…

Look At Me Now

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

 Love had he found in huts where poor men lie;
  His daily teachers had been woods and rills,
  The silence that is in the starry sky,
  The sleep that is among the lonely hills.
  W. Wordsworth.

I've changed so much over the years, I scarcely recognize myself nor the life I've led back then. I sometimes wonder if I still would be who I am today if I hadn't been diagnosed with stage 3 ovarian cancer. Not only have I changed on the outside, but on the inside. 

Many people look at me now and think what a great attitude I hold in regards to my cancer. Little do they know, it has taken me ten years to get here. Believe me when I say, there is still plenty of work left on myself that I have kept hidden from view. I understand that it is something that may take a lifetime. 

Of all the people I've met since my diagnosis, I miss Linda the most. In a way, she was the…

The Negativity Trap

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I heard a voice in the darkness singing
(That was a valiant soul I knew),
And the joy of his song was a wild bird winging
Swift to his mate through a sky of blue. And his song was of love and all its bringing
And of certain day when the night was through;
I raised my eyes where the hope was springing,
And I think in his heaven God smiled too
(That was a valiant soul I knew). --J. Stalker.
As I listened to Emily's rampage of all the terrible things that have happened to her throughout her day, I realized she sounded just like me. So negative! She learned it from her mother.

I don't think we realize the impact we make on our children nor the people around us. We just assume we are good. We go to Church. We read the Bible. We haven't killed anyone. Therefore, we must be good. Well, we are not.

Just like the Israelites of the Bible, we complain and complain from sunrise to sundown. It'…

My Testimony

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                            everyday is a journey.

We live in deeds, not years: 
in thoughts, not breaths:
In feelings, not in figures on a dial.
We should count time by heart-throbs. 
He most lives
Who thinks most, feels the noblest, 
acts the best. --Philip James Bailey.
I remember being Baptized eight years ago. It was September 28, 2008. I remember trying desperately to find something to say before my Baptism. We all were taken to the front of the Church Sanctuary facing everyone in the Congregation. We had to make a small speech of why we chose Baptism in our lives. I remember very clearly a good friend of ours saying to me she couldn't wait to hear my Testimony. 
What? My Testimony! Believe me, the last thing I wanted to do is stand in front of people I hardly knew and tell them my story. Newbie that I was, I thought that it meant I had to list all my wrong doings a…

Hand Me Another Skein Of Yarn

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                everyday is a journey.

Breathes there the man with soul so dead
Who never to himself hath said,
This is my own, my native land!
Whose heart hath ne'er within him burned
As home his footsteps he hath turned
From wandering on a foreign strand? --Sir Walter Scott.
Hi Lottie, Are you still doing that crochet thing? Maybe I will stop by when I get a chance to brush up on my skills.
Believe it or not, I get quite a lot of messages such as the one above. Everyone just assumes that my Ministry has been a fleeting thought and now no longer exists. 

This coming August, my Ministry will be celebrating 4 years of serving our community here and in other states, through the talented hands of a group of ladies who love to crochet. I, myself, am in awe of these ladies and their desire to continue serving the poor and needy. I've always said that t…

Simply Beauty

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                          everyday is a journey.

I met a little Elf-man once,
Down where the lilies blow.
I asked him why he was so small
And why he didn't grow. He slightly frowned,  and with his eye He looked me through and through. "I'm quite as big for me," said he" As you are big for you."
How do you picture or see yourself? Whatever we have gone through in regards to our health, the way we entered in and the way we come out is completely different. We as a society are consumed by how we look on the outside. 

What surprises me even more is the realization that I am obsessed with how I look. I never knew I had vanity issues. I mean, all of my life, I've had this wash 'n' wear attitude in regards to beauty. Cancer changed all that. 

I've gained somewhere in the ball park of eighty pounds. I've  lost my luscious eyelashes. My body…

The Latest

Everyday is a brand new day.
                                                              everyday is a journey.

They that wander at will where the
Works of the Lord are revealed,
Little guess what joy can be got
From a cowslip out of the field. --Alfred Tennyson
Well, we went from raining constantly to high temperatures a few weeks before Summer officially begins. High winds and high heat, not a great combination. Since my hot flashes have stopped, this heatwave is not as bad as I imagined. I've been able to handle it way better than before. I haven't turned on the air as of yet. 

Things have been quite hectic which is normal around here. So far this month, I've gotten one traffic ticket (thank you camera) in the same exact spot that I got one last year. I'm beginning to really dislike that area. 

The pipe under my kitchen sink corroded through and drenched everything in the surrounding area. Now we can play the wa…

My Son

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                             everyday is a journey.

Nor can I count him happiest who has never
Been forced with his own hand his chains to sever,
And for himself find out the way divine;
He never knew the aspirer's glorious pains,
He never earned the struggler's priceless gains. --James Russell Lowell.

Meet Joe, Dr. Pastor Joseph Michael Krol, my son. I say his full title not because I want to show off, but I want this to be an encouragement to others. You see, my son, hated anything to do with school and it reflected in his grades. One would never know that looking at him now. I tell this story to all mothers who are in similar shoes with their children. You can never predict their story, because it is not our story to live. So never give up on your children, no matter what the situation. 

My son and I have so much in common whether he may acknowledge it or not.…