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Trial It Out

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                         everyday is a journey.

Longing is God's fresh heavenward will,
With our poor earthly striving;
We quench it, that we may be still
Content with merely living. But would we learn that heart's full scope
Which we are hourly wronging,
Our lives must climb from hope to hope,
And realize our longing. --James Russell Lowell.
A good year ago, during the Winter Season, I decided to give up television as a trial to see if I could exist without it if need be. Well, I'm happy to report I don't miss it at all. I do have to admit that I use Netflix and my computer for any viewing of movies or shows. 

Not too long ago, I found myself in a room with the television going and I couldn't take my eyes off it. I was glued to the set watching commercials! Can you believe it? I sat there as if I've never seen a television set! I noticed right away that it…

Oh, That Tiny Space

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

There's many a time when the bitterest thing
Is said without reason, and God knows
The courage it takes to suffer the sting,
By hiding the wounds that the heart shows. There's many a sob we bravely keep down
For the sake of old times revered so,
There's many a head with thorns for a crown
Where kisses would soon make the heart glow. --Edwin Leibfreed
I look around my room with total dismay. There isn't an inch that isn't covered in boxes, yarn, plastic bags or mats. Just last month, the tower of homeless mats fell on top of me while I was sleeping. Keeping order and being clutter free will be my biggest challenge in tiny living. 

How do I change that? How do I even begin?

Well, I need to stop multi-tasking altogether. I need to work on one single thing at a time. If I truly want to live tiny, I need to keep the clutter down to a minimal. Something I really have a hard time avoid…

Sustainable Living

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Light human nature is too lightly lost
And ruffled without cause, 
complaining on,
Restless with rest, 
until being overthrown,
It learneth to lie quiet. --Elizabeth Barrett Browning.
I deeply admire people who live a sustainable lifestyle. These are the homesteaders, the Tiny House Dwellers and off grid living families. My family background comes from farming back in Poland. Maybe that's why it's my passion? It's in my blood? The love of it flows freely in my veins?

It seems that nowadays no matter where I go, everyone wants to inquire about my Tiny House situation. The problem is twofold: One, I have truly no idea in what direction I will go. Two, sometimes I feel people are amused and not taking me seriously on the subject. 

In all honesty, if I had all the resources available to me, I would go completely in a different direction altogether. I would purchase land with a small cab…

3 Things

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I am the man of a thousand loves,
A thousand loves have I;
And all my loves are white-winged doves,
That into my soul would fly. I am the man of a thousand friends
Of tuneful memory;
And each of them spends the delicate ends
Of a brilliant day with me. And all my gifts are magical words
That sing sweet songs to me;
And the sensitive words are caroling birds
In the garden of imagery. --Edwin Leibfreed.
I think it's funny how people think that only the old can teach the young. I believe that the young can teach us old folks a few tricks, too. Recently, a friend of mine showed me the following 3 things that we can pass on to our children. 

Our Hands.
What are your gifts of the hands? The gifts we can teach others with our hands.

Our Head.
What are your gifts of the head? What special knowledge can you share with others?

Our Heart.
What is your gift of the heart? How can you inspire someone else?


The Next New Thing

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I cannot do it alone,
The waves run fast and high,
And the fogs close chill around,
And the light goes out in the sky;
But I know that we two
Shall win in the end--God and I. --Unknown.
I have a pet peeve, a REALLY big pet peeve. I cannot stand any advertisement about the incredible new juice or shake or pill that will cure what ails you. Try this drink every morning, noon and night to see the difference at your next doctor visit. People who could not move around suddenly are doing back flips. They all carry the name "new" in them, too. New Life, Pro Life, Nu Shake. Whatever.

Since my cancer, there is always a well meaning person out there that would love to introduce me to that cancer cure of all times. Eating your blueberries and broccoli everyday will prevent the cancer from coming back. The same can be said of beets. Please believe me when I say I am not mocking any of these vegetables…

Coming Up

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

This above all to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou can'st not then be false to any man. --William Shakespeare.
I love looking into the future whenever we have new things coming up. I get all excited at all the new projects in the anticipation of how they will turn out. I'm not exactly sure what excites me more, the projects or the idea of something new?

Before being diagnosed, I used to plan everything. I looked toward my future with excitement as aging did not scare me as it has most people. I thought of my retiring years as something to look forward to. I mean, the children would be grown, financially we would be sound and we would have freedom to do whatever I wanted. Who wouldn't be happy about that?

All of that changed when I found out I had cancer. I began living for the moment. As one year turned into two, then five and now ten, I found…

The Family Tree

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Quiet, Lord, my froward heart,
  Make me teachable and mild,
  Upright, simple, free from art,
  Make me as a weaned child;
  From distrust and envy free,
  Pleased with all that pleaseth Thee.
J. NEWTON. Our family has not only expanded over the years in numbers, but has spread out across the United States. Getting together all under one roof is increasingly becoming more difficult. That wasn't always the case. 

When all the children were little, all of us lived no more than three blocks or so from one another. There wasn't a day that all of the grandkids weren't over, tripping over one another with all their shoes and book bags. The first six grew up together, eating and playing as siblings rather than cousins. 

Things are different now. They are grown and living out their own lives just the way they should. Getting together is fast becoming difficult a…

The Appointment.

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                            everyday is a journey.

He who plants a tree
Plants a hope.
Rootlets up through fibers blindly grope,
Leaves unfold unto horizons free.
So man's life must climb
From the clods of time
Unto heavens sublime.
Canst thou prophesy,
 thou little tree,
What the glory of the boughs shall be? --Lucy Larcom.
It's been so long since I've been there, that I almost forgot about the appointment. Thank goodness, I happened to look at the calendar for another reason. There it was staring up at me, 10 a.m. this Friday, Dr. K. 

I have been so blessed this year not to have any doctor appointments. Truly blessed. So I went, hoping to get home as soon as possible as I was still going in to work. No need to take a day off if I can go in the morning. 

The oncology visit went well, even better than expected. I love my Doctor K. and we have a very easy going relatio…

The Handicap

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journal.

I rest beneath the Almighty's shade,
    My griefs expire, my troubles cease;
  Thou, Lord, on whom my soul is stayed,
    Wilt keep me still in perfect peace.

I've been thinking a lot lately. . . about everything, but especially about my health. My goal has always been to be as independent as possible regardless of my chronic illness. The quality of life matters extremely to me. It is not something that I take lightly. In the past, I have pushed myself to high standards all because of that fact. I never wanted to look or act like a victim.

This last treatment brought out some issues that I needed to address. As time has gone by, these same issues have gotten worse. It's only expected since I have been at this cancer for over ten years now. My body feels worn out and I have to slow down a bit even if I don't want to.

I feel my body deteriorating while I…

The Anniversary

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Not from the dangers that beset our path
From storm or sudden death, or pain or wrath,
We pray deliverance;
But from the envious eye, the narrowed mind
Of those that are the vultures of mankind
Thy aid advance. Not at the strong man's righteous rage or hate,
But at the ambushed malice laid in wait
Thy strength arise;
At those who ever seek to spot the fair
White garments of a neighbor's character
With mud of lies. --Theodosia P. Garrison.

The minute I pulled into the parking lot, my entire mood shifted from carefree to just plain bad. I started complaining about the lack of parking space and the distance I had to walk. Suddenly, I could feel the ache of all my joints, knees and the carpel tunnel in my right hand. If there was an ache somewhere on my body, I felt it right then and there. Everything felt wrong.

It must have been my work anniversary that brought on all these negative feelings…

A Beth Moore Simulcast

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                         everyday is a journey.

Then every tempting form of sin,
Shamed in Thy presence, disappears,
And all the glowing, raptured soul
The likeness it contemplates wears.

I feel so privileged to belong to a Church that offers so many opportunities for one's growth. One, there are so many ways one can volunteer. Two, they host quite a few speakers throughout the year. I had the privilege of hearing one of those speakers via a simulcast, the one and only Beth Moore. 
Now, I have heard Beth speak many times before and I have been in multiple of her Bible studies. Today's topic was Captivated:The Wonder Of Christ On The Winding Road. 
Again, I love her dearly, but her dress styles are something out of this world. I don't know of anyone quite like her. She certainly has her own style. Emily says that's because she knows who she is and is not afraid to show it. That's right, girl, go for i…


Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Though waves and storms go o'er my head,
    Though strength and health and friends be gone,
  Though joys be withered all, and dead,
    Though every comfort be withdrawn,
  On this my steadfast soul relies,--
    Father! Thy mercy never dies.

Walking out of the shelter, I come face to face with a group of people walking in. They shuffle in single file, all tired and disheveled looking. Children included. That's what startled me the most . . . the children. We think of homelessness as that man at the crosswalks, carrying a sign. We don't associate homeless with children. 

If Emily and I come to a traffic light and there is a homeless person begging for money, we will give him/her a few dollars. We have been criticized for it, but we have a completely different outlook regarding it. We believe that we as Christians, are meant to feed the hungry and …

3 Sundays

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

 So others shall
  Take patience, labor, to their heart and hand,
  From thy hand, and thy heart, and thy brave cheer,
  And God's grace fructify through thee to all.
  The least flower with a brimming cup may stand,
  And share its dewdrop with another near.

They say, one must visit a Church three times before one can make an assumption about that Church. Each of those Sundays will be different and that is the entire point of the three Sunday visits. One can see all different aspects of a Church.

The same can be said of any situation in life. I, myself, have a tendency to overstay my welcome in any given situation. Talk about beating a dead horse. I never can quite let go just in case this might be the breakthrough. I have stayed in broken relationships far longer than what was good for me. That goes the same for my financial status or even any personal friend…