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The Winter Blues

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                           everyday is a journey.


Father of light! to thee I call, My soul is dark within: Thou who canst mark the sparrow's fall, Avert the death of sin, Thou who canst guide the wandering star, Who calm'st the elemental war, Whose mantle is yon boundless sky, My thoughts, my words, my crimes forgive; And since I soon must cease to live, Instruct me how to die. --Lord Byron.
I believe I have the Winter Blues. I'm tired all the time and I definitely don't want to get out of bed in the morning. Besides, work has been doubly slow and the eight hours slowly pass by. I want to pick up that phone and call in sick every single day. I'm done with Winter. 

Have you noticed that whenever one feels down, everything and everyone seems depressing? The conversations are depressing. The world news are depressing. It's almost as if a dark cloud follows us around dispensing cold, cold rain. How do we shake it off?

I keep telling …

Too Many Projects

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Everyday is a brand new day,
                                            everyday is a journey.


Brother and friend, the world is wide, But I care not whether there be The soothing song of a summer tide Or the thrash of a wintry sea, If but through shimmer and storm you bide, Brother and friend, with me. --Percy C. Ainsworth.
Well, I've done it again! I've over extended myself with too many craft projects and now, I'm way behind. All of you know that I have a Crocheting Ministry in which we donate everything we craft. Plus, we work by donations of yarn. All of that yarn donated is used strictly for charitable organizations. None of it is used for personal use. 

Although, we do make items for ourselves or family members using materials that we bought ourselves. I also, have certain projects that I'm asked to make and my repayment will be yarn. I should clarify that they also buy whatever yarn is needed for that project. Having said all that, I've taken on quite a bit of these…

The Ten Questions

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Everyday is a brand new day, 
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Grave on thy heart each past "red-letter day"!
  Forget not all the sunshine of the way
  By which the Lord hath led thee; answered prayers,
  And joys unasked, strange blessings, lifted cares,
  Grand promise-echoes! Thus thy life shall be
  One record of His love and faithfulness to thee.
F. R. HAVERGAL.

I often see a question and answer sort of game on social media that many of us love to participate in. Although they are very popular, I don't join in.  I found the above list and just for the heck of it, decided to answer them. I found myself answering each one based on one event in my life in 2016. 

Almost to every question, except one, I've answered radiation. That time really was a pivotal moment in my life in both good ways and bad.

1. What went well this past year? My treatment went well, much better than wha…

Pictures

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During my unpacking, I came across some old photos of my recovery period beginning way back in 2007 until now. Since that time, I have had four bouts with cancer, two of which I lost my hair. I keep these photos to remind me of where I've been, how long I have come and where I want to go in the future.



Having my chemo treatment. Check out how thin I was!
My second bout with cancer and here my hair was growing back. I thought I looked like a million bucks.


Now I know you're thinking I'm pretty thin, but this isn't my lowest weight! This is my second to the lowest.
My hospital room at home a.k.a. the living room.


My wearing many hats and scarves, trying to look stylish with no hair.


I was so thin trying to keep the weight on. Now, I'm so fat trying to keep the weight off. Ironic.
The oncologist's waiting room/ chemo treatment.



The beginning of my crocheting therapy.
My lowest weight ever ( a little under 100 lbs). Not very pretty, but I keep it to remind me every time I s…

A Spiritual Meal

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 When sorrow all our heart would ask,
  We need not shun our daily task,
    And hide ourselves for calm;
  The herbs we seek to heal our woe
  Familiar by our pathway grow,
    Our common air is balm.
J. KEBLE.

I've been brought up to appreciate a meal as a celebration. A meal consisted of homemade comforting food to be shared with a large group of people. This meal would leave you feeling too full, but satisfied. My parents loved to entertain. Our family home was always filled with people, some that I didn't even know too well. 

That's how I view a spiritual meal offered by God to us. That's exactly what I'm looking for in a relationship with God, a fulfilling spiritual celebration where we both walk away from it satisfied. We are so full, we need to unbutton our waistband.

That's why I look forward to Sunday. It may be really difficult to get up early out of bed. It may be tem…

The Simple Life 2

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.



Still may Thy sweet mercy spread A shady arm above my head, About my paths; so shall I find The fair centre of my mind Thy temple, and those lovely walls Bright ever with a beam that falls Fresh from the pure glance of Thine eye, Lighting to eternity. R. CRASHAW.
When I first made the decision to live simply, I embraced the lifestyle energetically. I thought I was on the right track to living out the lifestyle meant for me. I also thought I knew all there was to know on that subject. Well, I was wrong.

That fact was made clear to me when we moved before Christmas. Two things stood out right away. One, I have way too much stuff. Two, I like separation of rooms. 

Too Much Stuff. I may have gotten rid of a lot in the past such as clothes, shoes and accessories, but there is so much more. A move will show you things about yourself and how you live. I still have boxes I haven't unpacked yet. Where…

Things I've Learned About Myself

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.


Workman of God! oh, lose not heart,
    But learn what God is like;
And in the darkest battle-field
    Thou shall know where to strike.
F. W. FABER.


Some transitions in life are harder than others, but we come out with a lesson learned. . . sometimes. Some of us, need to relive some of these struggles a few times before that lesson is learned the hard way. That's why we all know individuals whose life is a total mess. We keep saying to ourselves and others of these situations, why do they keep making the same mistakes over and over again? When will they learn?

The problem is that we're just as guilty. We all have had a time such as theirs in our lives, we just won't admit to it. Sometimes, we forget situations and the struggles we have endured, because they are gone. We forget how we felt and what we experienced. Out of sight, out of mind. How will we ever grow as individuals if we jum…

The Praise Notebook

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Like the star
That shines afar,
Without haste
And without rest,
Let each man wheel with steady sway
Round the task that rules the day,
And do his best.
--Goethe.

There are so many fantastic experiences that occur to us daily that we cannot explain. Some people call it luck, but I call it blessings from God or God moments. I've decided to start a Praise Notebook to remind me during my darkest moments how much God truly loves me and blesses me on a daily basis. 

When we are facing struggles in our life, it is so easy to get side-  tracked in our faith. So easy to fall into the trap of the devil's negativity. All lies created by the deceiver to fall away from God, the one true being that has always been there for us. The worst part? We actually believe these lies!

That's why it's important to get into the Word of God and be reminded by His promises to us. We all need to be reminded, even I!…

A Clean Slate

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                                         Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Sometimes, our heart 
needs a fresh start.
Ann Voskamp

What makes you happy? It's all about the little things, isn't it? Joy comes in small packages and sometimes we just plain miss it. Every new year, we all have this idea we are beginning anew. A new start. A new beginning. A new, clean slate. All of it devised to start a journey of clean, spiritual living. Or at least, we start out that way, but do we really get there?

Here we are at the end of January, a time of a new era upon us. It is Inauguration Week and many are celebrating with HOPE sprung anew in their hearts. The other half are out in demonstration form, saddened by the turn of events. In a Democracy, there are winners and there are losers. I thank God that we still have a choice in the matter.

To me, I'm looking to the future, my heart overflowing with HOPE and Joy. I would do the same whether the President was a Democrat or…

The R.V.

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.



  The lives which seem so poor, so low,
    The hearts which are so cramped and dull,
  The baffled hopes, the impulse slow,
    Thou takest, touchest all, and lo!
  They blossom to the beautiful.
SUSAN COOLIDGE.

Recently, I had the privilege of visiting my older brother in Wisconsin. One of the highlights of the trip was my tour of their RV. Now, if you have been following this blog, you know how much I love the idea of Tiny Living and hope to do so myself in the future. Just like with many things in life, wanting something doesn't mean it may be a good thing. One has to check every aspect of that want to make sure it is truly the right thing for them.


This is a 38 foot long RV. 


This is the view lengthwise and you can see how much space there is to move around. 


I can easily settle in comfortably in an RV. You can't see in the picture, but there are cabinets above all around the cabin. 


 A clo…

When We Don't Understand

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey. 

I have an acquaintance who has a chronic illness, several in fact. Having just come off another bout with one of her illnesses, I am at a loss how to approach her. That is usually not the case for me, but this time, it's very difficult for me to understand her behavior or her attitude.

She smokes incessantly, doesn't take her medication and walks around with an air of I don't care attitude. She cares not one iota about her health or her life. This is nothing new, she has been like that for years. 

I don't understand that kind of behavior. We pay for insurance, but we don't use it? Like I said earlier, I struggled deeply to understand why this individual and others like them, who don't take care of their health. If you have a chronic illness, that alone should make any person to sit up and take notice. That alone should send a deep desire to live within anyone.

I remember that day well. I went home and I couldn…

Technology

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

I have a love/hate relationship with technology. I love being able to write my blog posts on a keyboard instead of using long hand in a notebook. I love the comfort and ease of looking up information instantly on anything. I love connecting with others no matter where I am. I love watching movies, T.V. shows and documentaries from any given year at the simple click of a button. 

But . . . . let something go haywire like a storm or an error flashing on the screen, I'm ready to toss the technological gadget out the window. So when it came to the actual move of ours, I cringed. There is nothing more I dreaded than having to transfer all these accounts, wires, cables etc. from one place to another. Calling customer service, waiting on hold and speaking in terminology that is foreign to me with a thick accented foreigner . . . please help me Lord. Let's not forget all the new passwords and user id's. that had to be created, some…

On The Road Again

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Everyday is a brand new day,
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It's been awhile since I took to the road for a trip. I was a little scared in the beginning, but as soon as I jumped on the expressway, it was ready . . set . . go! I love the freedom of an open road, the big beautiful blue sky and a tank full of gas. One can leave all the troubles behind or at least in our minds. 

That's what I did this past weekend, I took to the road and visited my older brother in Wisconsin. You know, when we're having fun, time just flies! We had a blast, but my favorite part (and grateful) was my tour of their RV. There will be pictures, but not today.

Being on the road again brought back so many memories. I used to be afraid of the expressway until a tiny black box was invented going by the name of GPS. Greatest invention ever! I can go anywhere without a thread of fear. If I make a wrong tu…

The Waiting

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Life is made stronger
Giving, receiving;
Love is made longer
Hoping, believing. Life is made sweeter,
Truly worth living;
Love is completer,
Trusting, forgiving.
--M. B. S.
I have come to the conclusion that I'm horrible at waiting. I've also realized that a horrible person emerges when I wait. I'm imperfect, totally unworthy of being the daughter of a King. I say that I want to do the the will of God, but secretly I'm hoping it is the same as mine. I say I will trust in the Lord, but then I whine when things don't go my way. Yup, waiting stinks.

I've also learned something valuable: Sometimes, God waits on us while we're waiting on Him. 

Wow, that's powerful, don't you think? I think we get stuck in this waiting game and we forget that we are the ones who have to do the work. We keep looking to God to do it for us. Someone asked me last night how do we know when to a…

A Church Of Our Own

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                                     Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                       everyday is a journey.


Hidden in our longing there's
an innate yearning for 
something better---- some
lasting pleasure or sense of 
completion. Something that 
cannot be found in plastic
and cellophane, but in the
perfectly satisfying 
companionship of Father,
Son and Holy Spirit.
Daniel Darleng

As we began this new journey of ours moving back into the suburbs, one of our main goals was to find a home Church. I, myself especially, couldn't wait to get back to a steady routine. I wanted to join a women's group, something I have missed being involved in. Online bible studies are great, but I miss the human interaction of a face to face discussion. Who says I couldn't do both?

We did choose to belong to a large Church atmosphere, which was something new for both of us. We have always stayed in a small Church community, where we really were more like a family. Small …

A Post About Nothing

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.


I never saw a moor
I never saw the sea
Yet, I know how a 
heather looks and 
what a wave must be.
 I never spoke with God
nor visited in Heaven.
Yet, certain I am of the 
spot as if the chart 
were given.
Emily Dickinson

Some days, one cannot get anything done no matter how much we may try. It just doesn't happen. We could plan everything, even write it down on the calendar and poof! nothing is accomplished. 

That's exactly what happened this morning. My bed was so warm and comfy that I had no desire to rise from it. I watched as the hand on my clock ticked away announcing each new hour, as I lay snug as a bug in my bed. I almost called in sick to work, because of  all this laziness! It would defeat the whole purpose if I had listened to that voice. My goal has been to save all the vacation days I could and use them during those hot, humid days of Summer. 

When I was younger, I used to think that days like these were really procrastination…

I Have To Go To Work

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Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.


I have to go to work!

If I had to choose one phrase of the year, that would be it. I have found myself repeating that same phrase every single time I had a doctor appointment. Doctors run on a different schedule than the rest of us. I hope my sister-in-law forgives me for saying that (she's a doctor), but the medical field does run on different time than ours. 

I can remember one instance where I complained to my oncologist about my leg pain. Now, why did I do such a thing, I have no idea. I should have known she would run all sorts of tests. She sends me down for a Doppler ultrasound. I, of course, protest that there is no time. I have to go to work!

Oh, Ms. Krol, there is no need to worry. You won't have to wait at all. It's all arranged, just go to Room blah blah, they're waiting for you. It won't take any time at all.

Of course, when I get there I end up waiting and waitin…

The Beast Within

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Why do funerals bring out the worst in people? We'd like to think we would behave better, but would we? Do we? Or is it the preparations of a funeral that bring out the worst in us? Each family member trying their very best in honoring the deceased and in  believing they know what kind of funeral would reflect the personality. That's why it is important to tell your loved ones of your wishes beforehand. It's not morbid, it's smart. 

I've been to all types of funerals ranging from huge events to just family members. Some are filled with baptisms and with long lines of testimonies of remembrance of the deceased. Others more solitary with hardly any visitors at all. The size of the funeral doesn't mean anything at all. What does matter to me is whether the person was loved or not. Or rather, how much.

Yet, there is another side to funerals. The one where regular, sane relativ…