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Day 51 Of Writing: We All Fall Down

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Thy thoughts are good, and Thou art kind,
E'en when we think it not;
How many an anxious, faithless mind
Sits grieving o'er its lot,
And frets, and pines by day and night,
As God had lost it out of sight,
And all its wants forgot.

None of us are infallible. We all hurt. We all can be brought to our knees. We all bleed. Every single one of us can in a heartbeat, be struck with an illness. Are you ready? I think not, because none of us ever thinks about the what if moment that could happen to us. 

This has been brought home to me just the other day in two ways. One, my own cancer anniversary. Two, my younger brother's sudden quadruple bypass. 

Who knew, just as everyone was going around their business, one of us would be struck down so quickly. Here we were preparing for our trip, packed and ready to go, as that dreadful phone call came. The words quadruple bypass, 90% block…

Day 50 Of Writing: It's A Celebration

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey

No sinful word, nor deed of wrong,
Nor thoughts that idly rove;
But simple truth be on our tongue,
And in our hearts be love.

Today marks my twelfth year since being diagnosed with cancer. It was on this day, that my whole life changed and for the better. I was at that time 42 years old and I didn't think I would ever see the age of fifty! I did end up reaching that milestone a few years ago. Today, I reached another.

Back in 2007, I wanted desperately to meet other women with ovarian cancer. I couldn't find any and in fact, it's hard to find them even now. Our survival rate is quite slim. For a period of two weeks, I searched online for ovarian survivors, finally finding some in a chat room that I can't remember. I wish I did, because I would love to see where some of those ladies are right now. 

One thing I can tell you is that this monster called cancer has …

Day 49 Of Writing : Vacation On A Budget

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey. 

Within! within, oh turn
Thy spirit's eyes, and learn
Thy wandering senses gently to control;
Thy dearest Friend dwells deep within thy soul,
And asks thyself of thee,
That heart, and mind, and sense, He may make whole
In perfect harmony.

One may think that just because we are on a weekend getaway, that we spent a bit of money. Not true. Remember, we have a goal that we set for this year. That didn't go out the window just because we are at a weekend getaway. We did plan this accordingly.

For one thing, we compared prices at the various hotels out there. We looked if they offered a breakfast and if their rooms had a microwave/ refrigerator. We looked to see what was in the neighborhood surrounding the motel. Were there any restaurants or grocery stores? Once when we went to Florida, we had a grocery store a few blocks away. We bought groceries and made our own meals. A grocer…

Day 48 Of Writing: YouTubers!

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Thou art as much His care as if beside
Nor man nor angel lived in heaven or earth;
Thus sunbeams pour alike their glorious tide,
To light up worlds, or wake an insect's mirth.

When I first began watching YouTube I was very judgmental in my view of the many channels out there. It wasn't the content of their channel. In fact, I really liked a lot of them and soon became enthralled by them. What I had a problem with was the asking of money from their subscribers. 

Don't get me wrong here. There are many channels out there that show spectacular vlogs and provide a wealth of information. If people want to support their channel via Patreon or Paypal, it's their business. They are providing  so much great information for free. It's the ones where, a flood happened or someone became ill or they needed a well. Or the ones that didn't have a job, but help me pa…

Day 47 Of Writing: A Weekend Getaway

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                     everyday is a journey

O Thou, the primal fount of life and peace,
Who shedd'st Thy breathing quiet all around,
In me command that pain and conflict cease,
And turn to music every jarring sound.

A few months ago as we sat down with this year's budget and goal's, we asked what are planning for a vacation? Well, when one is trying to pay off debt and gain financial freedom, one doesn't go on expensive vacations. We opted to do a couple of weekend getaways instead.
If you googled tourist attractions in your state, you would find plenty of these little getaways where one can visit a vineyard, a cheese factory, state parks and even sites where movies were made. These types of tourist attractions are just perfect for a small weekend away. We chose to see what was around us in a three hour radius within our s…

Day 46 Of Writing: Cancer And Family

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey. 

A patient, a victorious mind,
That life and all things casts behind,
Springs forth obedient to Thy call;
A heart that no desire can move,
But still to adore, believe, and love,
Give me, my Lord, my Life, my All.

I often think back to that first time with cancer. If I could go back, I would change a few things. For one, I would include my two children more in my recovery. In fact, they would be all in it with me. I relied on my family way too much to pull me through. I think I was so starved for their love and attention that I allowed them to take care of me. I loved every minute of it. They pampered me, took over my household, the paperwork, basically everything. I totally basked in it. 

I was selfish, though, because my children needed me. Maybe it couldn't be any different. All of us were going through something very dramatic, very emotional and very painful. My son reached …

Day 45 Of Writing : Everything Is Possible

Everyday is a brand new day, 
                                                                everyday is a journey. 

Lord, I my vows to Thee renew;
Disperse my sins as morning dew;
Guard my first springs of thought and will,
And with Thyself my spirit fill.

When we paid off the one debt, I was elated for about 24 hours. That's all. I know I should be feeling on top of the world to have achieved it, but I wasn't. In fact, quite the opposite.

You see, I know what it took to get that done. It wasn't easy, far from it. Yes, one is finished, but we have to do it again . . . twice. All I see in front of me is the hard work involved. 

Remind yourself
everything is possible.

That quote stared up at me all day at work. One of our managers writes an inspiring quote on the board every single morning. The quote of the day. You can't miss it. There it is as one walks by, staring at you. 

Remind yourself

Day 44 Of Writing: Cancer And The Port

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Where our Captain bids us go,
'T is not ours to murmur, "No,"
He that gives the sword and shield,
Chooses too the battle-field
On which we are to fight the foe.

What is a port? Well, a port is a medical appliance that is placed beneath your skin. They place it beneath the collarbone area. It is used during chemotherapy treatment to administer the infusion without having to use your veins. Chemo damages your veins, especially if administered directly with an IV. 

The port I have now is my second one since my diagnosis. I took my first one out as soon as I went into remission back in 2007. Silly move on my part, but I honestly thought I was done with cancer. I mean, I had it and beat it. That was my thinking back then. 

It was soon apparent that it would become my life. When they placed another port, it could not go into the same spot as the other one. Scar tissue formed in …

Day 43 Of Writing: Yarn Shopping

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

The souls most precious to us here
    May from this home have fled;
  But still we make one household dear;
    One Lord is still our head.
  Midst cherubim and seraphim
    They mind their Lord's affairs;
  Oh! if we bring our work to Him
    Our work is one with theirs.

Yarn prices have gone up, folks. I've spent this past week checking around the different prices in my neighboring craft stores. I am blessed to be surrounded by a 6 block radius in either direction with Michael's, Joann's, Hobby Lobby, Target, Walmart, a Resale Shoppe and a Salvation Army. I wanted to see what each store had to offer in prices, clearance aisles and coupons.
The Resale Shoppe benefits an organization for abused women. They have so many beautiful things and really good prices. I wish I had enough time to go through all the aisles, but I was on my way to work. All their books were goin…

Day 42 Of Writing:

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey. 

Just where you stand in the conflict,
There is your place!
Just where you think you are useless,
Hide not your face!
God placed you there for a purpose,
What e'er it be;
Think you he has chosen you for it:
Work loyally.

"Isn't it amazing what you learn to live with around the house?"
Oh yes, until someone plans to visit. Of course, it does depend on who it is that is visiting. It could be that relative that lives in a magazine worthy home. They see everything and might tell everyone. Suddenly, everything seems out of place and outdated. We scrub from top to bottom, from morning until night. We scream at our family to stop messing up the house.
Yet, when our dearest and closest come, they don't seem to care. They are just as comfortable in these surroundings as we are. That door that doesn't close all the way doesn't bother anyone. The threadba…

Day 41 Of Writing: Some Days

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey. 

Thou Thyself dost still display
Unto the pure in heart,
Oh, make us children of the day
To know Thee as Thou art.
For Thou art light and life and love;
And Thy redeemed below
May see Thee as Thy saints above,
And know Thee as they know.

Some days . . . we just want to lay in bed dreaming of nothing in particular. Listen to the birds chirping and feel the Sun streaming through the window. 

Some days . . . the weather reflects how we feel. It's raining heavily and purifying the land. Purify me, Lord.

Some days . . . we look for silence, opting to be alone. Reflections. Meditations. Bask in the silence, you never know what you will hear. Or whom.

Some days . . . you want to jump for Joy at all the blessings flowing your way. You want everyone to know the goodness that comes from Him.

Some days . . . a hug says more than any smooth yielding tongue. Embrace me in your love, your c…

The 100 Day Project: Day 40 Of Writing

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                  everyday is a journey.

Take Thy hand, and fears grow still;
    Behold Thy face, and doubts remove;
  Who would not yield his wavering will
    To perfect Truth and boundless Love?

In what room do you spend the most hours in your home?
I was reading an article the other day that asked that very question. We seem to decorate our homes based not on our needs, but the general public. Almost every home has a living room, kitchen, bathroom and bedroom. There may be others, but these are the basics. We decorate the living room based on what we think should be in one. A couch, an entertainment center, a chair and a cocktail table. That's in every living room out there.
Now, I thought about that question all day at work. I am a person who believes in simplicity, so the idea of all these rooms seems silly to me. We have a very mo…

The 100 Day Project: Day 39 Of Writing

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

 Make me patient, kind, and gentle,
    Day by day;
  Teach me how to live more nearly
    As I pray.

Sometimes, things just don't go the way we plan. No matter how much we try, it just won't turn out well. It's moments like these, that make one realize how truly little control we have in our life. There have been so many days where I had a list of things to accomplish and I did absolutely nothing. 

I almost missed my deadline yesterday. The morning slipped away so rapidly that one wonders at the vastness of all the necessary chores that keep piling up. Life keeps moving no matter how we feel. We think we have control, but in truth, we are spinning in one place waiting for the Almighty to point us in the direction needed. We can't do anything without Him. 

I'm not even sure what had happened. All I did was change my plans for the week. I n…

The 100 Day Project: Day 38 Of Writing

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                         everyday is a journey.

Speedily the mark to find;
As the lightning from the skies
Darts and leaves no trace behind;
Swiftly thus our fleeting days
Bear us down life's rapid stream;
Upward, Lord, our spirits raise;
All below is but a dream. --John Newton.
I am amazed when I see people who are having chemotherapy traveling from one state to another. Even more amazed when they go into another country. I've done some travelling while in treatment, but it was very minimal. In fact, I have read somewhere it is unadvisable to be travelling in an airplane while under chemo. Not sure if it is true or not. I have tried to be grounded during all my bouts with cancer just to be on the safe side.
I remember very clearly one incident where a friend and I decided to take a road trip to visit Joey. It might have been in Missouri, but I am not sure. I felt pretty …

The 100 Day Project: Day 37 Of Writing

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                   everyday is a journey.

My mind was ruffled with small cares to-day,
And I said pettish words, and did not keep
Long-suffering patience well, and now how deep
My trouble for this sin! in vain I weep
For foolish words I never can unsay.

Well, another Mother's Day is over and hopefully everyone was joyful. We can only hope. For me, it was a lovely and peaceful weekend. In fact, it seems that lately I am enjoying the weekends more and more. I feel rested and can actually get some things done. 

My work has been slow for quite awhile now. The new owners have been very busy remodeling the front lobby with some much needed new furniture. A new DI Water Treatment is being added and a Research/Discovery Department will be built upstairs. We may be a bit slow business-wise, but behind the scenes, a lot has been going on. Every…