Showing posts from 2019

Fighting Negativity

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                       everyday is a journey.

She doeth little kindnesses
    Which most leave undone or despise;
  For nought which sets one heart at ease,
  And giveth happiness or peace,
    Is low-esteemed in her eyes.

Negativity has been something that I have struggled with from time to time. It hasn't ruled my life, but it likes to creep in occasionally. I have tried to keep a positive outlook, looking at life as a half-filled glass rather than an empty one. I have also found that there are some trigger points that can set me off into a pit of despair. These trigger points can be something as small as a bad day or a careless comment made by someone. Either way, doubts appear almost instantly.
Negativity isn't an isolated feeling, we all experience it without even trying. Not all of us can conquer it, not even I. It tak…

A Winter's Prep

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                             everyday is a journey.

Thy calmness bends serene above
    My restlessness to still;
  Around me flows Thy quickening life,
    To nerve my faltering will;
  Thy presence fills my solitude;
  Thy providence turns all to good.

Well, Labor Day has come and gone. All the children, both small and grown, should be in school by now. The garden should be thinning out, unless you have planted a Fall one. The weather is cooling off with that occasional heat wave here and there. One can hear the birds announcing their departure as they take their V formation. Even the trees are losing their greenness.
Fall is almost here. For some, it might already be here. This is the time where I sit down and make a list. I take stock of what needs to be done and what needs to be replaced. I check the pantry and make sure we have enough of everything. I check the medicine cabinet and rest…

Letting A Dream Die

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                                everyday is a journey.

It is perfectly obvious that men .
do necessarily absorb, out of the influences
 in which they grow up, 
something which gives a complexion
 to their whole after-character.
—Anthony Froude.

We as humans have a natural desire to dream. We learn early on in our life that in order for us to achieve what we want, we have to ask for it. That can come in many forms. We can verbalize what we want. We will get down on our knees every night before bed and pray for it. We can write about our deepest wishes in the form of a letter or secret diary. Whatever way we choose, we learn very quickly that if we stay the course, God will hear our request. 

What are you dreaming for? What have you spent years praying for? How many tears have you wept over that dream? How much preparation have you spent t…

What Have I Been Up To

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                              everyday is a journey.

Believ'st thou in eternal things?
    Thou knowest, in thy inmost heart,
  Thou art not clay; thy soul hath wings,
    And what thou seest is but part.
  Make this thy med'cine for the smart
    Of every day's distress; be dumb,
  In each new loss thou truly art
    Tasting the power of things that come.
T. W. Parsons.

I know it's been very quiet on my end in regards to my blog. Honestly, my fatigue has gotten the best of me. I sleep when I am tired, I rest whenever I can. I basically have been taking it easy, doing a little bit at a time.
Even my crocheting has been suffering. My right wrist has been hurting on and off for quite awhile. Whenever I would work on the homeless mats, my wrist would blow up swollen. I've decided to rest this hand and perhaps finally get it situated. I've been using a loom instead of the crocheting hook. It is much less strain on it and even then, …

The Most Productive Weekend By Far

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                             everyday is a journey

O Love, how cheering is Thy ray!
    All pain before Thy presence flies;
  Care, anguish, sorrow, melt away,
    Where'er Thy healing beams arise.
  O Father, nothing may I see,
  Nothing desire, or seek, but Thee.

Folks, it has been a very, very busy three day weekend for me. Yet, I don't feel worn out at all. I had so much fun that it hardly seems like a working weekend. Maybe, because I truly enjoy what I do outside of my real job. 

Saturday morning, I set out for the farmer's market quite early so I could pick up all on my list. Once, I went there towards the end and the stalls were pretty skimpy. I bought a bushel of tomatoes, because the Summer garden is pretty much done and I know tomatoes will be gone. Same thing with mushrooms and other veggies. After September, it is mostly hardy vegetables…

The End Of August

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken.
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, 
although his height be taken. —William Shakespeare.

Here we are at the end of August and September is peeking around the corner. My goodness, did time fly by awfully quick this Summer. Didn't we just start the Season with the kids home for vacation, BBQ's and watermelon? Majority of the children are already back for a new school year. Fall is not far behind and pretty soon the year will end. Well, time does go by pretty fast.
 I am such an organizer of everything. I love schedules and calendars. I like order, but one wouldn't believe it by looking at my room. The one place that chaos exists and I love every bit of it. I have spent much time reflect…

Just Share It: Lysa Terkeurst

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                      everyday is a journey.

When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
  The rivers of sorrow shall not overflow;
  For I will be with thee thy troubles to bless,
  And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.

Wow, after reading the following post I couldn't help, but reflect back on my own journey. How many times have I been disappointment in an outcome only to discover there was something else so much better coming my way? Too many times! There used to be an old Country song that went something like Thank God for unanswered prayers. We tend to get so worked up in our disappointment that things didn't quite go the way we may have wanted them that we forget who is really in charge of our lives. Not only that, but He knows better what we need and when we need it. The following is another great reminder from Lysa.…

Simply Dehydrating

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Under Thy wings, my God, I rest,
    Under Thy shadow safely lie;
  By Thy own strength in peace possessed,
    While dreaded evils pass me by.

So I went out and bought a dehydrator. I've been thinking of purchasing one for ages thinking it might be a great option for the future. I've been researching how to preserve food for long periods of time like canning, freezing and dehydrating. For now, dehydrating seems the best option for us.
You might be wondering why I would buy one in the first place. Am I planning on moving away to live in the hills? No, this is really more of an experiment. I wanted to see if I could do two things. One, I wanted to preserve the freshness of garden vegetables. You know how we feel about our Farmer's Market. Two, I wanted to see if we could save money by buying vegetables when they are in season and cheaper. We would dehydrate them and …

Reflecting On Preventive Care

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                             everyday is a journey.

Nay, all by Thee is ordered, 
 chosen, planned;
Each drop that fills my daily cup Thy hand
Prescribes, for ills none else can understand:
All, all is known to Thee.

I have been a huge advocate of preventive care, especially when it comes to a chronic illness. Ever since the latest news from my cancer team and insurance company, I've been thinking about how this may affect me now. Basically, preventive care takes on a different role than before. One of my screenings (ct. scans) will not be available to me unless there is some kind of finding during my Oncologist visits. This lack of screening changes everything.
Since that is the case, what does preventative care look like for me now? Well, I think I may need to step it up to do what I can on my end. I need to make sure I take my vitamins daily. Proper nutri…

Change Can Be Good

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                               everyday is a journey.

One holy Church, one army strong,
    One steadfast high intent,
  One working band, one harvest-song,
    One King omnipotent.

I have this one manager at work that just loves to write encouraging quotes on the board outside his office. They are meant to be a positive effect on our attitude so we can conquer the work day.  Sometimes all they end up being is just plain cheesy sayings that only aggravate us. Once in awhile he hits it right on the mark with a really good one.
If you can't do anything about it, let it go. Don't be a prisoner to things you can't change.
I have been reflecting on many things these past few weeks. As I have mentioned  before, this really hasn't been a good month for us. It has been hectic, stressful, disappointing and absolutely frustrating to say the least. If I…

A New Category

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                             everyday is a journey

One there lives whose guardian eye
  Guides our earthly destiny;
  One there lives, who, Lord of all,
  Keeps His children lest they fall;
  Pass we, then, in love and praise,
  Trusting Him through all our days,
  Free from doubt and faithless sorrow,--
  God provideth for the morrow.

Earlier this week, I received a voicemail from my Oncologist's office, asking me to call them as soon as possible. Since the Ct. Scan denial from my insurance company was still fresh on my mind, I quickly called them back wondering if it was somehow related. They wanted to reschedule my appointment and again I wondered if my doctor was still on maternity leave. Wrong, wrong, wrong.
They wanted to reschedule my appointment for one reason. I have been placed in a new category.  It seems that there has been a huge influx of cancer patie…

Reflections On Radiation

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Like the star
That shines afar,
Without haste
And without rest,
Let each man wheel
 with steady sway
Round the task that
 rules the day,
And do his best. —Goethe
Radiation, my nemesis. I still shudder at the mere thought. It was five weeks/25 days total and did the most damage to my joints than all the other chemo treatments combined. There are foods to this day that I cannot have too much of or I will be sick. Radiation did the trick alright, in more ways than one. In fact, my radiation doctor has been so far, the only one to tell me that I will have problems with osteoporosis, because of it. My Oncologists look at me like they have never heard of any cancer patient with joint/arthritis issues. Yet, ask any cancer survivor if they suffer from bone loss of any kind and see what they tell you.
Thank goodness that radiation is a one time thing or at least for me. I do know some people who had …

Reflections On Remission

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

But souls that of His own good life partake,
  He loves as His own self; dear as His eye
  They are to Him: He 'll never them forsake:
  When they shall die, then God Himself shall die;
  They live, they live in blest eternity.

For someone who has a recurrent cancer, remission isn't what it's cracked up to be. Right after treatment, we welcome the respite of remission. Our bodies are tired, we are tired and we are tired of being in the hospital. We look forward to recuperating and trying to get back to our old routines.
Unfortunately, the recuperation takes quite awhile and the long lasting side effects to the treatment kick in almost immediately. Six months turn into one year and we can't believe how much time has passed. The healing process is still in effect, the results small indeed. Our bodies will never be what they once were before the cancer.
The longer we are…

Lost In My Yarn

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                              everyday is a journey.

It is not that I feel less weak, but Thou
  Wilt be my strength; it is not that I see
  Less sin; but more of pardoning love with Thee,
    And all-sufficient grace. Enough! And now
  All fluttering thought is stilled; I only rest,
  And feel that Thou art near, and know that I am blest.

So I have come to a decision to clear up or close down any outstanding projects for the year. Come September, I want to basically focus on my writing and crocheting. I have a deep desire to lose myself in the things that bring me much Joy and Peace. Hence, the writing and crocheting. This is very relaxing and therapeutic for me. This is what I really need right now.
I am a firm believer in the Bible verse, Be still and know I am God. I feel as if I need to be still. I am very tired and until I can get this thyroid problem un…

Eating Healthy

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                 everyday is a journey.

Thy soul shall enter on its heritage
Of God's unuttered wisdom. Thou shalt sweep
With hand assured the ringing lyre of life,
Till the fierce anguish of its bitter strife,
Its pain, death, discord, sorrow, and despair,
Break into rhythmic music. Thou shalt share
The prophet-joy that kept forever glad
God's poet-souls when all a world was sad.
Enter and live! Thou hast not lived before.
—S. Weir Mitchell

Earlier this year, I made up my mind to finally do something about my eating habits outside of my home. That's the key point here, outside my home. As many of you know, I have been on this eating healthy journey ever since my diagnosis in 2007.  If I had to rate myself, I would give myself a score of 90% there. It's the 10% that I want to conquer. I do great at home, but there are many trigger points thro…