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Generation To Generation: Starting Out Right

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                       everyday is a journey.

Through love to light! 
O wonderful the way,
That leads from darkness 
to the perfect day!
From darkness and from
 sorrow of the night
To morning that comes 
singing o'er the sea.
Through love to light! through 
light O God to Thee!
Who art the love, 
the eternal light of light! --Richard Watson Gilder.
Something I did not do right in life is start off the right way. When I look back, I think I did everything wrong. Quite the opposite! I should have gone to school and furthered my education. I should have waited and had children with a good man. I should have, could have, would have. I definitely could turn this into a sob story, but where I am now, is not where I used to be. Praise God for that!

One of my main goals in doing this series has been to improve on our ancestral heritage with the forthcoming generations. That's how you …

There Goes The Donut

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                           everyday is a journey.

wrestle not with rage
While fury's flame doth burn;
It is vain to stop the stream
Until the tide doth turn. But when the flame is out
And ebbing wrath doth end
I turn a late enraged foe
Into a quiet friend. --Robert Southwell.
So it all began with a job making extra money dressed as a donut for a grand opening at a new Dunkin Donuts. Guess who was wearing that costume?

So for about 7 days, she dressed up as a donut and stood outside in the freezing cold. Nothing unusual there, right? Yes, but unbeknownst to her, one of the managers knew her from when he was scoping her workplace as a Barista in the neighboring coffee shoppe for a couple of weeks. He would come in and observe how everyone worked, how many hours, what their duties entailed and their customers service.

So when she walked in, he knew her by name. Wait, what happe…

Another Pajama Nesting

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                  everyday is a journey

Yet Love will dream, and Faith will trust
    (Since He who knows our need is just),
  That somehow, somewhere, meet we must.
    Alas for him who never sees
    The stars shine through his cypress trees;
  Who hath not learned in hours of faith,
    The truth to flesh and sense unknown,
  That life is ever Lord of Death,
    And Love can never lose its own.

Oh, how I need my nesting days! I long for the rest and relaxation of shutting ourselves in doing the things we love. Sometimes, we need to shut the world out so we can re-energize our souls. Refresh. Reboot. Relax. 

For a minute there I was a bit worried there would be no time for any kind of nesting. It's been go, go, go all month long. It has made me realize that we all need something to help us relieve the stress in our life. My relief might…

A Christmas Eve Tradition

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                           everyday is a journey.

In battle or business, 
whatever the game,
In law or in love,
 it is ever the same:
In the struggle for power, 
or scramble for pelf,
Let this be your motto:
 "Rely on yourself." --John G. Saxe.
I wanted to get up really early, truly I did, but I was just too tired! Why would it matter anyway? I'm home for Christmas vacation and have no need to be up early for anything. Oh, but you are wrong!

We have this Polish tradition that we have been acting out every Christmas Eve. For as long as I could remember, we would try to be the very best we could on this day. We believe that how your Christmas Eve goes that's how the rest of the year will go,too. 

If you wake up late, then you will be waking up late all year.

If you argue with people, then your relationships will not go well all year.

If you have many calls or visit…

The More

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                           everyday is a journey.

O Light that followest all my way,
I yield my flickering torch to thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in thy sunshine's blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be. --George Matheson.
I looked out the kitchen window and there was my downstairs neighbor filling up her car with antifreeze. There wasn't much in it, she kept tapping the container for every drop to come out. Recently, she had a real bad accident. Her passenger front end was squashed like an accordion ribbon. I knew from past experience her car was leaking fluids. After a bad crash like that one, things get loosened under that hood. The car starts to break down, bit by bit. 

I went outside, opened my trunk and pulled out two containers of antifreeze to hand over to her. I didn't need them anymore. I have been blessed with a good car that I regular…

A Very Simple Christmas

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Look thou with pity on a brother's fall, But dwell not with stern anger on his fault;
The grace of God alone holds thee,  holds all;
Were that withdrawn, t hou too wouldst swerve and halt. J. EDMESTON.
Christmas . . . such a special time of the year. When one has children, especially small ones, the month is spent doing all things Christmas. We would make handmade decorations, cookies, visits with Santa and Holiday musical specials at school or Church. The sky is the limit.

I, myself, have changed towards Christmas and it's traditions. I no longer crave all the extravagant trappings of a modernized and materialistic Christmas. I want the simple. The meaning to have value. The tradition of family.

If I had my way and I really mean a space, a permanent home, I would host a traditional Christmas. I've always wanted to do one. Not the modern version, but the version of old when Christmas t…

Wrapping It Up

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Thou art my King--
My King henceforth alone;
And I, Thy servant, Lord, am all Thine own.
Give me Thy strength; oh! let Thy dwelling be
In this poor heart that pants, my Lord, for Thee!

Boy, am I glad I don't have a huge shopping list this year. I simply detest shopping, especially in crowds. The few that I went shopping for sent me off in a fit. People are rude, especially when it comes to parking. None of the employees I encountered knew where the puzzles were or even understood what I was talking about.

Such is life! It has been one of the busiest weeks thus far. Another shipment went out for the Ministry, but it was two large boxes and 3 mats. I am still in awe over how much we were able to send out this month. Praise God, indeed!

I used to be so much better at being done ahead of time. Everything seemed to crop up at the last minute and suddenly time would run away …

This Drafty Place

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

When obstacles and trials seem
Like prison-walls to be,
I do the little I can do,
And leave the rest to Thee.

I shivered, couldn't help it. I have been sitting at my desk hoping to get a head start on this huge paper pile in front of me. There's always so much to do, isn't it? Our apartment hasn't really felt nice and cozy. It kind of feels a bit drafty. 

I didn't winter seal the windows as good as I have done in the past. I only did one or two of them thinking the others wouldn't matter. I was wrong. I could feel the draft and for me, that is unusual. Normally, I am very warm and content. 

Looking around our apartment, I realize just how drafty this place has become with the weather change. This home of ours is not the best looking, but it is sure cozy. Or at least, it is that way for me. Emily on the other hand, well she calls it the ghetto, becaus…

The Mammogram Experience

Everyday is a brand new day, 
                                                                       everyday is a journey.

When obstacles and trials seem
Like prison-walls to be,
I do the little I can do,
And leave the rest to Thee.

It's 5:00 a.m. and once again, I'm getting up to face the day. For someone who hibernates in Winter, I've been up and at it pretty aggressively this Season. Then again, it really isn't Winter yet, is it?

So what brings me up this morning? An appointment for a mammogram. Nothing serious, just a routine yearly visit to get the girls checked. How long is the average time spent in a mammogram? Fifteen minutes or so? 

I dropped off Emily at work and was on my way by 7 a.m right in the middle of rush hour traffic. The trip itself is one I have taken for the last 11 1/2 years. I could do it in my sleep with my eyes closed. My experience with the Hospital and clinic has chang…

A Six Year Plan: The Debt

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

What is rightly done stays with us, 
to support another right beyond, 
or higher up; 
whatever is wrongly done vanishes; 
and by the blank, 
betrays what we would have built above.
--John Ruskin.

The debt . . . we all have it. Some of us are knee deep in it and for others, we have sunk a long time ago. Quite a few years back, I was one of those people drowning in my debt. I made an investment in taking a financial class and I've never regretted it. It has changed everything for me.

Once you get hold of your financial situation, you can make decisions based on how much you owe and to whom. Paying off something, no matter how little, is better than nothing. I wanted to live a life that was debt free and I went out to do just that.

I took a nine week financial class, sat down one day to go through whatever debt I had and began paying off this debt. By the end of these six years, I…

Veering Off Course

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

 I do not ask my cross to understand,
    My way to see;
  Better in darkness just to feel Thy hand,
    And follow Thee.

My life has been filled with wrong turns and wrong paths. How could I have strayed so off course? I'm not blaming others, but myself. I allowed things to happen. because I had no gumption. I have been fearful of the unknown all of my life and I had no idea how to live boldly. When I was young, I told myself I wouldn't live my life with regrets. Isn't that what I am doing now?

The way I imagined my life to be back then was totally different from the way it turned out. For one thing, I never saw the cancer. Ever. That certainly was never in my plans, but then who does? It's not like we make a chart of our life the way we see it and say to ourselves, hey, let me put cancer down, too. No, it always seems to come by as a surp…

How Do You Fix A Sinking Chair?

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Then bless thy secret growth, nor catch
    At noise, but thrive unseen and dumb;
  Keep clean, bear fruit, earn life, and watch
    Till the white-winged reapers come.

My daily morning routine consists of this: I get up and make my coffee. l quickly pop a bagel in the oven and get dressed. My vitamins lay on my desk, all ready for me by Emily. She never forgets, because she knows I probably would. I bring my bagel and coffee to my desk. I raise the lever on my chair, lifting it up to the high position. 

I like it that way, because my knees hurt if it's in the lower. When I rise, it places too much pressure on them . So I sit down and the chair slowly lowers itself to the lowest position. I get up, raise the lever again and sit down. Same thing happens. I sigh. 

I could play this game all morning long. Up and down, up and down. I curse. Did I ever tell you that my grandc…

Out Of Commission

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                           everyday is a journey.

To live within a cave--
it is most good;
But if God made a day,
And some one come, and say,
"Lo! I have gathered faggots in the wood!
E'en let him stay,
And light a fire,
 and fan a temporal mood!
So sit till morning! 
when the light is grown
That he the path can read,
Then bid the man Godspeed!
His morning is not thine: 
yet must thou own
Those ashes on the stone.
They have a cheerful warmth. --Thomas Edward Brown.
On my off days, I ended up recording quite a few videos for YouTube. I never uploaded them, but had them saved on my tablet. Well, something is going on with my tablet and suddenly it doesn't want to work. Whatever, another technology problem. 

Honestly, I'm beginning to wonder if my YouTube days are numbered and I should just hang it up. This is one of the most challenging thing I have ever done. The Minist…

More Connection Problems

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                         everyday is a journey.

O Giver of each perfect gift!
  This day our daily bread supply;
  While from the Spirit's tranquil depths
  We drink unfailing draughts of joy.

So here we are again! After getting up very early to go grocery shopping with my mom, I came home to unpack and put away the items. Finally sitting down with my cup of coffee, I noticed we have no wifi. What? No wifi? The end of the world has come! If there is one thing I need is wifi. 

Again, I go to the main monitor and begin the whole process of disconnecting, counting to fifteen and connecting every single wire back together. Of course, that didn't work. It never works, but they want you to go through this process. I think they do that to keep you busy and not yelling at them.

So Emily says to me: My man better know how to fix "…

Back To Work

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                    everyday is a journey.

O will, that wiliest good alone,
Lead Thou the way, Thou guides! best;
A silent child, I follow on,
And trusting lean upon Thy breast.
And if in gloom I see Thee not,
I lean upon Thy love unknown;
In me Thy blessed will is wrought,
If I will nothing of my own.

Back to work after this short hiatus as we transitioned from Avon to Fareva. The Avon sign that I have stared at for over 23 years was gone as I pulled into the parking lot. There were three flagpoles standing boldly and proudly in front of the building. On it were the American flag, the French flag and a flag with the name Fareva. 

Funnily, no emotion ran through me. I think I have been waiting for this change to happen. I knew deep inside that if this didn't happen, we would have ended up in the unemployment line. Those are real fac…

Revisiting An Old Friend

Everyday is a brand new day,                                                   everyday is a journey.

We would fill the hours with the sweetest things, If we had but a day:
We should drink alone at the purest springs,
In our upward way:
We should guide our wayward or wearied will,
By the clearest light:
We should keep our eyes on the heavenly hills,
If they lay in sight:
We should be from our clamorous selves set free,
To work and pray:
And be what the Father would have us to be,
If we had but a day. --Margaret E. Sangster.

I've been missing my old friend, Linda. Somehow, I never thought she would die ahead of me. We began cancer together and I thought we would go out the same way. I didn't expect her to die and now I miss her very much. 

When things are uncertain and scary, we surround ourselves with the good ole friendships that we know will love us no matter what happens. Linda loved me, this I knew for sure. I knew that even w…

Officially Nesting

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                       everyday is a journey.

I do not ask, O Lord, that life may be
A pleasant road;
I do not ask that thou would'st take from me
Aught of its load.
For one thing only, Lord, dear Lord, I plead:
Lead me aright--
Though strength should falter, 
and though heart should bleed--
Through peace to light.
--Adelaide A. Procter.

Well, today is officially my nesting day. Sitting here in my pajamas, comfy as heck. Pj's are really comfortable. It is so gloomy outside with the clouds extremely overcast. No lighting coming through the windows at all. There has been sleet on and off all week. All this white in the sky, could there be snow coming? Who knows? 

All this gloominess is really starting to affect my mood. I'm trying desperately to shake off this woe is me attitude. Isn't it funny, how the lack of sunlight can affect us so much…