How Do You Fix A Sinking Chair?

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Then bless thy secret growth, nor catch
    At noise, but thrive unseen and dumb;
  Keep clean, bear fruit, earn life, and watch
    Till the white-winged reapers come.

My daily morning routine consists of this: I get up and make my coffee. l quickly pop a bagel in the oven and get dressed. My vitamins lay on my desk, all ready for me by Emily. She never forgets, because she knows I probably would. I bring my bagel and coffee to my desk. I raise the lever on my chair, lifting it up to the high position. 

I like it that way, because my knees hurt if it's in the lower. When I rise, it places too much pressure on them . So I sit down and the chair slowly lowers itself to the lowest position. I get up, raise the lever again and sit down. Same thing happens. I sigh. 

I could play this game all morning long. Up and down, up and down. I curse. Did I ever tell you that my grandc…

Out Of Commission

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                           everyday is a journey.

To live within a cave--
it is most good;
But if God made a day,
And some one come, and say,
"Lo! I have gathered faggots in the wood!
E'en let him stay,
And light a fire,
 and fan a temporal mood!
So sit till morning! 
when the light is grown
That he the path can read,
Then bid the man Godspeed!
His morning is not thine: 
yet must thou own
Those ashes on the stone.
They have a cheerful warmth. --Thomas Edward Brown.
On my off days, I ended up recording quite a few videos for YouTube. I never uploaded them, but had them saved on my tablet. Well, something is going on with my tablet and suddenly it doesn't want to work. Whatever, another technology problem. 

Honestly, I'm beginning to wonder if my YouTube days are numbered and I should just hang it up. This is one of the most challenging thing I have ever done. The Minist…

More Connection Problems

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                         everyday is a journey.

O Giver of each perfect gift!
  This day our daily bread supply;
  While from the Spirit's tranquil depths
  We drink unfailing draughts of joy.

So here we are again! After getting up very early to go grocery shopping with my mom, I came home to unpack and put away the items. Finally sitting down with my cup of coffee, I noticed we have no wifi. What? No wifi? The end of the world has come! If there is one thing I need is wifi. 

Again, I go to the main monitor and begin the whole process of disconnecting, counting to fifteen and connecting every single wire back together. Of course, that didn't work. It never works, but they want you to go through this process. I think they do that to keep you busy and not yelling at them.

So Emily says to me: My man better know how to fix "…

Back To Work

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                    everyday is a journey.

O will, that wiliest good alone,
Lead Thou the way, Thou guides! best;
A silent child, I follow on,
And trusting lean upon Thy breast.
And if in gloom I see Thee not,
I lean upon Thy love unknown;
In me Thy blessed will is wrought,
If I will nothing of my own.

Back to work after this short hiatus as we transitioned from Avon to Fareva. The Avon sign that I have stared at for over 23 years was gone as I pulled into the parking lot. There were three flagpoles standing boldly and proudly in front of the building. On it were the American flag, the French flag and a flag with the name Fareva. 

Funnily, no emotion ran through me. I think I have been waiting for this change to happen. I knew deep inside that if this didn't happen, we would have ended up in the unemployment line. Those are real fac…

Revisiting An Old Friend

Everyday is a brand new day,                                                   everyday is a journey.

We would fill the hours with the sweetest things, If we had but a day:
We should drink alone at the purest springs,
In our upward way:
We should guide our wayward or wearied will,
By the clearest light:
We should keep our eyes on the heavenly hills,
If they lay in sight:
We should be from our clamorous selves set free,
To work and pray:
And be what the Father would have us to be,
If we had but a day. --Margaret E. Sangster.

I've been missing my old friend, Linda. Somehow, I never thought she would die ahead of me. We began cancer together and I thought we would go out the same way. I didn't expect her to die and now I miss her very much. 

When things are uncertain and scary, we surround ourselves with the good ole friendships that we know will love us no matter what happens. Linda loved me, this I knew for sure. I knew that even w…

Officially Nesting

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                       everyday is a journey.

I do not ask, O Lord, that life may be
A pleasant road;
I do not ask that thou would'st take from me
Aught of its load.
For one thing only, Lord, dear Lord, I plead:
Lead me aright--
Though strength should falter, 
and though heart should bleed--
Through peace to light.
--Adelaide A. Procter.

Well, today is officially my nesting day. Sitting here in my pajamas, comfy as heck. Pj's are really comfortable. It is so gloomy outside with the clouds extremely overcast. No lighting coming through the windows at all. There has been sleet on and off all week. All this white in the sky, could there be snow coming? Who knows? 

All this gloominess is really starting to affect my mood. I'm trying desperately to shake off this woe is me attitude. Isn't it funny, how the lack of sunlight can affect us so much…

The Harm Of Cancer

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

So, take and use thy work: 
amend what flaws may lurk,
What strain o' the stuff, 
what warpings past the aim!
My times be in Thy hand! 
perfect the cup as planned!
Let age approve of youth,
 and death complete the same! --Robert Browning

Sometimes, I think people don't realize what it entails to have cancer. The way we went in is not the same way we came out. I'm not speaking of the emotional or mental state. I'm speaking of the physical. All the chemotherapy and radiation does a lot of harm. It may shrink or get rid of the cancer, but it also harms other parts of our bodies in the long term. 

One could finish the treatment, but it will take months, if not years, for the true extent of the damage done to our bodies to present itself. Take my veins, for instance, even after all these years, it's still a problem to draw blood or put in an I.V. drop. You can't even see my vein…