Showing posts from July, 2019

A Pretty Good Day

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

When thou hast thanked thy God
For every blessing sent,
What time will then remain
For murmurs or lament?

I had a very energetic morning, everything moving the way it should. This was a welcomed change from the last several days where my body felt completely and utterly exhausted. Not too sure what is really bringing on this fatigue, but I do know we can analyze things way too much if not careful.

Otherwise, things have been moving along nicely this week. Monday I had a very important appointment to file paperwork that needed to be done. Again, I barely slept as anxiety crept in. Silly, I know. The entire thing took about twenty minutes and I went away extremely happy.  I have to do absolutely nothing with this for the rest of the year. I did say that I was happy, didn't I? Funny how worked up we can become over nothing.
Also, I made two afghans for two very special people. One…

A Regular Pity Party

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey

Unite, my roving thoughts, unite
In silence soft and sweet;
And thou, my soul, sit gently down
At thy great Sovereign's feet.

Last week was actually a very stressful and tiring week. It's been a long time since I came home with the soles of my feet burning. I've also been experiencing fatigue. Fatigue is something new to me even though I have had cancer four times, because it has been only evident after this last bout. When fatigue overcomes your body, it feels like a semi slammed into you. You're depleted of all energy and all you want is to lie down. 

Friday was a particularly exhausting day and I have no idea how I made it through work. I dragged my sore feet home and upon walking into the chaos in my bedroom, I had a major meltdown. Whenever I am tired, I become very crabby and sensitive. Upon seeing the still messy and unfinished room, I became mad as a hat…

Redefining My Work Space

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey. 

He who intermits
The appointed task and duties of the day
Untunes full oft the pleasures of the day;
Checking the finer spirits that refuse
To flow, when purposes are lightly changed.

I have been working towards improving my quality of life ever since this cancer journey began. It has set a theme in motion that I have envisioned for myself. I say myself, because my children will have their mates and in the end, I will be alone. That is the way of things.
Still, I am not completely there. I can see it in my head of how I want to live out my remaining years. I would love to spend those years doing Ministry work full time. That is still a few years away and in the meantime, I want to improve my work space so it can work even better for what it is intended for. I want to change it up!
First thing I needed to consider is painting the room. It was this mustard yellow color and it h…

Not In A Good Mood.

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                  everyday is a journey

That low man seeks a little thing to do,
Sees it and does it:
This high man, with a great thing to pursue,
Dies ere he knows it.
That low man goes on adding one to one,
His hundred's soon hit:
This high man, aiming at a million,
Misses an unit.
That, has the world here—should he need the next,
Let the world mind him!
This, throws himself on God, and unperplexed
Seeking shall find him. —Robert Browning.

Today I was reminded of how different our world has become. We can nowadays, voice our views whether political, religious or personal on any social media with just a click of a button. We have become very careless as a people with the written word. We seem to feel that we can post anything we want without any consequence to anyone else. We feel we have the right to do so. In fact, many of us accuse others …

Clearing The Cobwebs

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey

Be still, my soul! Thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past:
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake,
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

I have begun two series almost a full year ago that I have not finished. I may have posted one or two blogs from each, but haven't completed the series. There are reasons why I thought of them in the first place and I think it's time to basically clear them out.
1. Generation to generation. A look to our past to acknowledge, accept and improve on our recurring mistakes in order for us to better the family unit and as individuals. Every family has these same patterns that are repeated over and over again. The question arises: What are the repeating factors from one generation to another? How can we prevent them from recurring in our grandchildren? In this series, I examined marriage, finances and cyc…

Just Share It: Harmony Dust

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is journey.

The thoughts that in our hearts keep place,
Lord, make a holy, heavenly throng,
And steep in innocence and grace
The issue of each guarded tongue.

Today's post is a bit different from the rest, but I believe that there are things we just need to hear. In my years, I cannot tell you how many women I have come across who have been abused sexually in one form or another. It is a travesty that the state of womanhood can be so badly treated. Our role is so significant in this world and yet many of us are never shown respect. It pains me to see other women suffer. We are so much better than that and I wish all women would feel their self worth. You are beautiful. You are loved. You are worth it. Enjoy.

Facing The Pain
by Harmony Dust
I spent years hiding from the pain that sexual abuse and rape brought to my life.  Because I didn't deal with the pain, the pain had a way of dealing …

All About Fiber

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                  everyday is a journey.

Thus my soul before her God
    Lieth still, nor speaketh more,
  Conqueror thus o'er pain and wrong,
    That once smote her to the core;
  Like a silent ocean, bright
  With her God's great praise and light.

So let's talk about fiber. So how important is it? According to The Institute of Medicine, the average adult only eats 15 grams of fiber per day. Women need 25 grams of fiber per day, and men need 38 grams per day. You may think that it's a lot of fiber, but fiber can be found in a lot of foods. I, personally, eat plenty of fiber, probably more than I need. Fiber is not something my body lacks. In fact, if I'm not careful I can have a problem with too much.
So what does fiber do for the body? Fiber provides fuel to help build the levels of good bacteria in the large intestine…

Just Share It: Jonathan Pitts

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

He who God's will has borne and done,
    And his own restless longings stilled,
  What else he does, or has foregone,
    His mission he has well fulfilled.

Very rarely do I post a male author's article. It has more to do with the fact that my readers happen to be female rather than male. There are some exceptions, lol. The blog, in fact, deals with women's issues . . . mostly. Sort of sexist, I know. What caught my attention with this article had to do with his love for his wife. In this day and age, where marriage is something rarer rather than common, it's very encouraging to read the follow. At least, I think so and I hope you think so, too. Enjoy.

How to Live Poured Out for a Marriage That Fills You Up
JONATHAN PITTS “… but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled him…

Day 100 Of Writing: The Final Day

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

Faith that withstood the shocks of toil and time,
Hope that defied despair,
Patience that conquered care,
And loyalty whose courage was sublime; Teaching us how to seek the highest goal,
To earn the true success;
To live to love, to bless,
And make death proud to take a royal soul. —Louisa M. Alcott.
Well, I'm glad it's over! This was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I think that next year I will do something else like crocheting one hat a day for 100 days. No more writing. Besides, I think it was confusing for my readers and it wasn't a success that I thought it would be. A bit disappointing for me.

Anyway, it is over and we can move on to other things. Although, I have wondered how everyone else fared with this project. Did everyone finish? Did they post regularly? I've seen some on YouTube, but they seemed to stop posting after a couple of days. 

We are marki…

Day 99 Of Writing; Days Of Old

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey. 

Prune thou thy words,
 the thoughts control
That o'er thee swell and throng;
They will condense within thy soul,
And change to purpose strong
.—John H. Newman.

The scene above is one of my favorites. It's actually a puzzle that mom and I did together. The farm scene reminds me of my Summer vacation on my maternal grandparent's farm in Poland when I was maybe 14 or 15 years of age. I had such a good time that I didn't pine for my family back in the States at all. I fed the chickens, the geese and even took the cows out to pasture every single day. For me, it was a time of discovery and I didn't want to leave the farm for anything. 

Many people have asked me why I never went back for another visit to my homeland. Well, the following Winter my grandfather passed away. My Uncle John and his family took over the farm along with grandma. I knew even then that the memories I hel…

Day 98 Of Writing: Food And Your Body

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey

Give me within the work which calls to-day,
To see Thy finger gently beckoning on;
So struggle grows to freedom, work to play,
And toils begun from Thee to Thee are done.

I'm beginning to believe that what we put into our bodies is very important. What we put in, that's what we get out. If we don't take care of our body, it will cease working for us. Ever since my cancer, I am so aware of every ache and pain, especially when it comes to certain foods. I see the difference in how my body reacts to these foods.
I also believe that what type of food we need depends on who we are on the inside and the outside. Others may require more fiber, but I have plenty intake daily.  I may need more protein instead. The problem lies with trying to figure out what that missing ingredient looks like for you individually.
So how do we do that? Well, we can take a blood test to determine …

Day 97 Of Writing: Missing My Fruit

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                               everyday is a journey.

Just to follow hour by hour
As He leadeth;
Just to draw the moment's power
As it needeth.

I love preparation. I am the sort of person that will check schedules, times and even what else may be in the area whenever I go on vacation. I am like that about everything. I love to know what lies ahead so I can be prepared for anything. That's why I am very surprised that I overlooked an area. In what? Well, I prepared the apartment for the heat wave, but I never thought of preparing by stocking the refrigerator.
The fridge is bare, folks. Not the pantry, that is fully stocked, but we need our fruits and vegetables. I need my fruits and vegetables.
It's funny how in our need we find things we would never have noticed before. I have been way too sloth like to do anything in this heat. Well, anything th…

Day 96 Of Writing: The Sawdust Diet Take Two

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                everyday is a journey.

Discouraged in the work of life, 
Disheartened by its load, 
Shamed by its failures or its fears, 
I sink beside the road;-- 
But let me only think of Thee, 
And then new heart springs up in me. 

Twelve years ago, I lay in the hospital weighing a mere 100 pounds trying to stay alive. I just finished watching the news, reporting that Tammy Faye Baker passed away from cancer weighing in at 65 pounds. Folks, I remember this so well. I became frightened, because I was at that time losing weight like crazy. I was afraid that if I didn't gain any weight soon, I would die just like Tammy Faye Baker.
Well, I prayed to God. I said to Him that if He let me gain some weight, I would never complain about my weight again. I gained 80 pounds in the next few months and then gained another 20 when the cancer came ba…

Day 95 Of Writing: Swollen

Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                               everyday is a journey.

He never comes too late;
    He knoweth what is best;
  Vex not thyself in vain;
    Until He cometh, rest.
B. T.

Well, the hot and humid weather temperatures are here to stay. We are in full Summer swing. Our windows have stayed closed, blinds and curtains drawn all to keep the cool air in. All that matters now is staying cool.

My poor legs have been swollen all weekend long. They look like stumps with sausage toes. The air pressure in these humid temperatures affects them so. You might be thinking: you have to drink more water! If you have been following me for awhile you would know that I drink a 59 oz. bottle of water every single day. That's why it's in that huge bottle so I know how much more I need to drink. 

Next question: You need exercise! I exercise every morning. Maybe it's not cardio or kickbox…

Day 94 Of Writing: Through The Years

Everyday is a brand new day, everyday is a journey.

An illusion haunts us, 
that a long duration, 
as a year, a decade, 
a century, is valuable. 
But an old French sentence says,
"God works in moments." 
We ask for long life, 
but 'tis deep life or grand moments that signify. 
Let the measure of Time be spiritual, 
not mechanical. Life is unnecessarily long. 
Moments of insight,
 of fine personal relation, 
a smile, a glance—
what ample borrowers of eternity they are!
—Ralph Waldo Emerson

I spent several hours last evening watching Chasing The Moon on PBS. As you can guess, it was our race to the Moon from beginning and ending with the famous walk. This was nothing new to me. I remember learning all about it at school. Yet, I stopped everything I was doing and watched mesmerized by that first step. 

Afterwards, I couldn't help but think about all the moments in history I have witnessed during my time here on Earth, both good and bad…