All of my life , all I ever wanted to do is blend in with the wallpaper . Some people want to be center stage , but not me . I just want to observe . Even in a room full of people I'ld position myself where I can see the whole room and everyone in it .
I see myself as a wallflower . Others see me differently . I have found this out since starting this blog . The compliments are overwhelming but comforting and pleasing . I don't feel I deserve them but I'm honored that you all think of me in that way .
Doing the interview about St. Jude both frightened and embarrassed me . I felt very exposed thinking that someone out there will say this is dumb . The feedback I received was very encouraging .
I have dealt with negative thoughts all of my life . Thoughts that have discouraged me from acting upon ideas or plans . Thoughts such as these can really discourage you from setting out and living life to the fullest .
How do we overcome them ? I wish I had an answer .It's so easy to say just act but in reality saying and doing are two separate things . Just recently , I acted upon an idea and much to my surprise it wasn't considered dumb or silly . The positiveness of it has encouraged me to do more acting and less naysaying .
Will I change and stop being a wallflower ? No , because I find that I like doing more behind the scenes than centerstage . The things I do are not for my glory but His . Have a Blessed week everyone .
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