Finding My Purpose
We spend majority of our life searching for our purpose , a reason why we are here . Some of us find it right away and others take a lifetime .
I , myself , have never given it much thought in the past . I met a man , set up house and raised a family figuring this was my calling . I wasn't happy , but I have made a choice and now had to deal with it .
During that time , I had four children , three boys and a
girl . Two of those boys died within three years of each other , one in crib death and the other spinal bifida . " We all have a cross to bear in life , this is your cross " , my grandmother said to me .
Not too long after that , my family broke up and I took my two children and left . Becoming a single mom wasn't something that I planned on all those years ago when I chose the wrong man . How old was I then ? Not even thirty .
In 2007 , I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and I barely made it through . Suddenly , my life took on a purpose . It took a tragedy , a chronic illness to bring home the absolute need to take stock of my life .
What am I doing to better my life , my children's life or anyone else's ?
Where is the purpose of living ?
What am I fighting for ?
What do I want to leave behind ?
When you are faced with death , you look back at your life and notice all the things you need to change . You retrace the steps you have taken and make sure you don't go there again .
These past seven years , God has been preparing me for this very step in my life . I believe my Crocheting Ministry is my purpose . It all began with my starting to crochet again after thirty years . Why now ? That is a very long time and then to pick it up again as if it was nothing . I wasn't rusty , not knowing the stitches . I crocheted as if I never stopped .
Then a challenge was thrown my way making all those slippers for U.I.C. Children's Cancer Ward . It took me a year to make those 665 pairs , but I did it . Now the Crocheting Club .
This is what I am meant to do . This is my purpose , I can feel it . It took me well into my forties ( 49 ) to figure it all out , but there's no stopping me now . The best really is yet to come .
What is your purpose ?
Have a Blessed day everyone .