Things I've Learned About Myself
Workman of God! oh, lose not heart,
But learn what God is like;
And in the darkest battle-field
Thou shall know where to strike.
F. W. FABER.
Some transitions in life are harder than others, but we come out with a lesson learned. . . sometimes. Some of us, need to relive some of these struggles a few times before that lesson is learned the hard way. That's why we all know individuals whose life is a total mess. We keep saying to ourselves and others of these situations, why do they keep making the same mistakes over and over again? When will they learn?
The problem is that we're just as guilty. We all have had a time such as theirs in our lives, we just won't admit to it. Sometimes, we forget situations and the struggles we have endured, because they are gone. We forget how we felt and what we experienced. Out of sight, out of mind. How will we ever grow as individuals if we jump too readily into assumptions and judgments?
I preach, because I am lacking. During radiation, I have met the inner me and I did not care for her. I lack compassion, understanding and I can be anti-social. At times, even a bit conceited.
These things are not easy to admit. We all want to believe our behavior and characteristics are of a gentleman or a lady. That is not always the case. I have learned the hard way to first look in the mirror and see what is reflected back at me. For every situation out there, we had some part that we played in it, even a tiny amount. Perhaps even without really being conscious of it. We need to learn to accept the part of us we are not proud of and hopefully change for the better.
Have a blessed day everyone.