First of all , I want to thank everyone for all the kind words of encouragement and prayers that were sent my way yesterday . Yes , it was a very rough day , but I will get through it no matter how defeating I may sound .
I ' m on my way back to the clinic today for my 24 hr.Neulasta shot for my white blood cell count . I'm trying my very best to stay focused on other things in my life . I have plenty to keep me busy . The problem is that when we don't feel well it affects our energy levels and we do nothing but lay around and think of all the pain . I don't want to do that anymore .
Last night , I kept myself busy as best as I could . It helped alot . I have all these notes that I've made but never entered into a journal of some sorts . I spent the whole night working on it .
Re-reading alot of these very personal and revealing insights into life , I realized just how much of prayering I have done in my life . Alot of these prayers have come true . Another insight is how much I have grown and still need to grow . As I entered all of these private moments and thoughts into a journal for my children , I thought back to the day my son asked me what words of wisdom I wanted to share with him . That day was a day four years ago when things didn't look very promising regarding my health .
His question really startled me because at that moment I couldn't think of anything to say . He caught me offguard . I don't have all the right answers to what life is about . I don't have the great words of wisdom to live by . I do have my journals , my blogs , my memories and they are welcome to them . Hopefully , they can find some comforting words in there somewhere when the time comes . If any of you could leave words of wisdom for your children , what would these words be ?
Now that's a tough one! Don't usually feel like I have many real 'words of wisdom' to share. But my kids (and now my grandkids, God love the little monkeys!) love to tease me by quoting some of my famous one liners, offered freely to them, without them even having to ask! Here's some of their favs.
ReplyDelete"Don't worry, everything is washable!" (Yes, they spilled things CONSTANTLY!)
"Get something GOOD!" My answer to my kids whenever they asked me what movie they should get for the evening. They always loved this because they figured it was so open ended they were bound to fail!
"Don't lose your wallet." I am nothing if not a master at stating the obvious!
"If he doesn't like you, he's an idiot." My honest (!) reply to my teenage daughters, worried about this guy or that guy not liking them! Truer words were never spoken!
"YOU are my favorite child!" Spoken to every single one of my kids when none of the others were around! I think they might be on to me though...
"Don't grow up too fast on me." Spoken to every one of my five grandchildren, who promptly ignored me and went on their merry way!
"Did you check your oil and make sure you have air in your tires." My answer for every possible car problem my sons might have. They think this is hysterical!
There's lots more of my homespun wisdom, but I won't bore you with anymore, Lottie.
The only real wisdom I have for my kids is: "Make sure you know how to get to heaven. I don't want to be there without you..." If they do that, I will consider that I did a good job after all...