Denied!

                                                                Everyday is a brand new day,
                                                                 everyday is a journey.

We tell Thee of our care,
Of the sore burden, pressing day by day,
And in the light and pity of Thy face,
The burden melts away.
We breathe our secret wish,
The importunate longing which no man may see;
We ask it humbly, or, more restful still,
We leave it all to Thee.
SUSAN COOLIDGE

Well, another Ct. Scan denied by Cigna. This will be the second time this year that it has happened. I am not sure how to take this, because somehow, I never thought it would get to this point. I am literally dumbfounded by this denial. . . again.

For an insurance provider to claim that I, a person who has a recurrent carcinoma and a 4 time cancer survivor in twelve years, have no probable cause to have one. That is ridiculous, just plain ridiculous. What am I paying my insurance for? It basically does nothing for me. What is the purpose of this insurance? It is a waste of my money. Period.

So I did let my children know and they both had the same reaction. Emily's mouth literally dropped and Joe was completely shocked. Funny, but they both used the same word  (seriously?!) to express their shock. Hey, I'm in shock, too.

Honestly, I have no idea what this will mean for me. Leaving it to just a CA125 blood work does nothing for me. My numbers have stayed the same regardless if I was in remission or in treatment. They stayed between 6 and an 8 throughout these years. You cannot base anything on the CA125. For some, it is a huge marker, but not for me. The same can be said for a pelvic examination. That is not foolproof enough. Although, it was during a pelvic exam that my oncologist felt something with the second bout with cancer. Well folks, that's all I have.

I will say that when Fall comes around and it's time for insurance elections, I will be very selective by what I choose. Hopefully, it will be a different provider. This is definitely a game changer. I still haven't had time to process everything, but it really opens up my eyes to many things that were left unseen. I am very, very disappointed with this bit of news.

Have a blessed day everyone.