More Q & A

Here are more frequently asked questions since my cancer few years back . People are just plain curious , because cancer is everywhere . We all either know someone with cancer or heard of a friend of a friend who has had cancer . Let's get to it . 

1. Are you mad at God ?
    No , I am not . I believe we all experience a time in our lives where we are angry with God . This was not the time for me to have such anger . I always felt that there was a message for me and I had a great fear of not being open to seeing it . That the message would pass me over and I would be blind to it . 

2. Where are you at now health-wise ?
    This question varies as time goes by . At this moment , I am in remission . My last doctor appointment was an extremely happy one where she felt I could easily and safely enjoy my summer without any tests , because this was the first time the current results came back so positive . 
    All of that can change in a heartbeat . I could go back in August or September and find that my cancer has awakened and began to grow again . 

3. Where are you at emotionally ?
    Everyone seems to think they have to whisper the word " death " when they are around me , in case I crumble . Not so ! I certainly have progressed far and come to terms with my mortality . This blog , my ministries , I have made it a mission to grow spiritually as best as I can . You cannot go through an illness and not examine yourself on this level . The two go hand in hand .

4. Were you a very angry individual before cancer ?
   Yes , someone really asked this question . This person is very involved in new-age religion . She honestly believed that my anger produced the cancer cells  to grow and only if I change my behavior into positive energy will I be free of cancer . 
   Now, I did become very angry on the inside when she said that to me , but held it in . I never want to intentionally hurt anyone with my words the way she hurt me with hers . I think this is a tactless comment to make to anyone who has lost someone or has an illness . You're basically saying they have brought this on themselves . How is this helping anyone ?

5. If you have cancer , then why are you gaining weight and not losing weight ?
   If you see a cancer patient that is losing weight dramatically , this person is seriously ill . Most likely , they are experiencing fevers and infections . We are given steroids to help with our symptoms and also to help maintain our weight . 
   When I lost a few pounds here and there while in treatment , the nurses were in a panic . No oncologist of mine has ever shown displeasure in my weight gain . I may have fretted about it , but they always waved it aside . Steroids increase your appetite and you eat more . 

6. If you are taking chemo , how come you didn't lose your hair ?
  There are many types of chemotherapy and each one has different side effects . You may lose all your hair or your hair will only thin out . It all depends on the treatment . Your doctor or nurse will inform you of the types of side effects you may be experiencing . 
   The first and second time , I lost all my hair . The third time , it thinned out and by the time my treatment was over , my hair became very limp and thin . 

I hope this provides some useful feedback into further understanding cancer . Have a Blessed day everyone .