It was chemo day today . I have begun to hate chemo day . Don't get me wrong , the nurses and staff are wonderful . It's just me . I'm tired of it all .
I have to take these steroids for a couple of days before chemo . They give me a reaction . I turn beet red in the face and neck . It will wear off after a week . I swear it also bloats my face and my stomach . This morning , I was so bloated I couldn't fasten my pants . When we got there , I looked around and noone else has this problem . The waiting room was filled with normal looking people ........except me . I'm the only one with that darn red face . It is so embarrassing . Then the hot flashes . I was burning up . I felt like my face was on fire .
I sat there , taking in my infusion , bloated sky high . I felt like I would burst if I didn't burp soon . It's 7:30 pm and I'm still waiting to burp . Driving home , I could feel that metal taste in my mouth come a whole day early . Lucky me . Next , the good ole nausea , constipation , diahhrea and my favorite vomiting . It's gonna be a long night .
I can't take this any longer . Today , I felt like getting up and walking out and never coming back again . What is the point of all of this ? Six months ? A whole year ? How long until it comes back again ? I have another two months of this and I don't think I can handle it . I'm feeling very tired suddenly . I need to go lay down .
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